I've just learnt one of my friends from college has had her first child. I wish her all the best but its snapped me out of complacincy and made me realise how miserable my own life is looking. Thinking back I could have asked her out back then along with a few other girls and maybe they'd have gone better than the relationship I desided to stay with. Maybe this is just striking me because of the way I was thrown down by my last girlfriend but I'm starting to feel so bitter about my prospects. For the last few months I've been telling myself I'm just having a down time and when I'm ready to return to the world I'll be able to improve it all but I'm starting to see how low those odds are. I've fallen into the situation where I can't get anything because I don't have anything and the more I think about it the more depressed and jelouse I feel. As I said maybe recent events have just piled up on me until I need to vent but I really don't see how I can claw my way out of this.