So I have decided. I'm going to learn photoshop... I don't know how hard or easy it will be for a colour-blind person to use it but I have come to the conclusion that I want to make art with my camera and not be limited just by what I see with my eyes but what I see in my head. I have seen some really inspirational photography lately and I have concluded that my ideas of photography are incorrect. Yes photography is a way to capture the world as I see it but it is not to be limited and I can change and edit photos to represent whatever I want. I also decided I need a MUCH better camera lens as I HATE mine it is simply not crisp enough. I now see the downfalls of a kit lens... too bad the lens I want is 2,000 dollars... I have also decided that I need models who will be less tense... first I need a better place to shoot and a better lens...oh yeah....and money... ugh Anyway plans... photography... not going crazy

Also I as I am writing this I am being fueled by a Monster import IT"S HURTING MEEEE! So I'm kind of hyper as my body does not take well to caffeine... or rather it takes too well..

Also I need to learn how to be a lesbian. This sounds strange and you may think I'm joking but I'm totally not kidding at all. Going from boy in a heterosexual relationship to girl in a non heterosexual relationship is a scary thought believe it or not. I will not know how to...well y'know... this is extremely inapropriate andI'll probably cry with embarassment and shame when I come off this caffeine high and realize how dumb I am but it needs to be said... or does it.... well if I can get lessons then it needed to be said... if I just get embarassment.... well.... foxhole time... whatever right now my inabitiions are gone. AND SO IS MY SPELLING!!!

What else... oh sorry about my earlier journal it was whiney but I wanted to complain because I had a bad day. However it's swell now it feels like spring time (for some reason whenever I am happy it feels like spring) *holds her stomache* ugh monster energy import with 233mg of caffeine why must you hurt my tummy. Ok well I am going to go to work.... well I'm at work but I am going to DO work... and by that I mean... talk on FA... because my job is easy as long as my get yelled at tolerance is high WHICH IT IS!!!

Ok I am leaving... gooodbye... also found an outfit I want and I'd post the link but you would all drool at the picture instead of say "nice outfit" or you'd look at one of the pictures of me on FA *glares at  waggable* and picture my guy self in it...eww... ok GONE