Well, another year has come, and here it is, another Birthday.

This time of the year has brought me many emotions along the years, and in the last ones, it was basically depression. Just a gently reminder of how from all the people i know, just a few of them trully cared to remembered what this day means to me.

I'm not going to lie, i really though this year was going to be just like all the others in the past. just another day more (well, not even that, since i tend to get depresed on this day more than any regular day, and probably cause i assume people will actually dedicate a bit of time to let me know i mean something in their lives). buuuuut... i received something today.

I went to work with the almost lost hope that people would remember and cared that it was my birthday and would actually do something for me. Well even though i already had it planned a few days before. A co-worker asked yesterday afternoon if i was going to go to the office today, meaning, i figured someone wanted to bring a cake or something for me, since noone ever asks if i'm going to the office or not, hehe. So, off to the office i went.

After some hours and with pending things at work, time passed. And my hope was diminishing and the small voice in my head kept saying "Told you, its just like all the years". When near noon a group of co-workers came along with a cake and started singing Happy Birthday to me. I was puzzled, even tough i imagined something might happen, i really wasn't expecting that they would do it. And there they were, like 20 people from work, all there. (yeah yeah, i know how things work out in the office in regards of birthdays, someone organizes it and send a bunch of mails to the others to make sure that even people who you might know or not goes to someone's birthday, and many go for the cake :P). Inspite of all that, what trully surprised me, is that they actually did it for me. And that many people whom i haven't seen in some time and most of the people i know were there. They took the time to be with me. And if my memory doesn't fail me. The last time i got a cake and people to celebrate my birthday at the office was.... over 6 years ago. This is what got me off guard... why now..? why the year i finally surrendered all hope and decided not to be depressed for not having people caring for me?.

It made me smile some, to finally be at least taken in account sometime. (Is not that noone never ever thinks of me or like i don't have friends at all, don't get me wrong. I do know people care for me and i got friends... is just that, it started to seem that people was happy to be with me when i went to them, but noone ever took the time or desire to look for me, or to remember days like this for me).

This year has given me a bit more hope on people. People came to say hi, wish me a happy birthday. i got a few messages on the phone. It was much better than others.

It hasn't ended yet, although i'm pretty sure that will be it, the only thing left i guess is to have dinner with my familly and enjoy another cake, and that's it for my day.

I feel weird.. I'm not bitter or depressed on this day, not everjoyed either hehe.. but it is a decently nice feeling. I guess it was a good day ^^

Hehehe, i was about to apologize as usual for the long note, but who am i kidding, i'd be amazed if one or two people even read this journal. So, what the heck. Happy Birthday to me ^^, hopefully things might change someday.

for the TL;DR people.. thanks for even getting to read this line, you deserve and award, hehehe :P

Take care people, and see ya around ^^

*Waves*