Here I am about to be free of this hellhole again but this place is so rotten to the core it laughs at me as if telling me I'll never truly leave. I don't know what it is about this place but it's like these woods really are death. Every pet I've owned I buried here... The one I have left that was mine is sickly and I'm afraid does not have long left. I fear when I leave she will be gone. This place fills me with a sense of darkness and evil I have never understood before.

I hope that this feeling of overwhelming depression will fade with good company and work. Something tells me that I'm in for months of more shit though. For three+ years running my luck has been throwing me a bone just to watch me choke on the splinters. Do something mildly heroic, get fucked to hell and gone by the cops, the court, the doctors, and everything in between. Try and get my license back get fucked by the state, the doctors, and the dmv. Get a job that in one week made 538 dollars... Get fired because the court proceedings are ongoing and I'm a liability they can't employ... Now afterwards with a fresh shiny new criminal record and over a year out of work and I can't get a fucking goddamn job to save my goddamned life.

This country will burn... I will be holding the fucking gas can to make sure it never goes the fuck out...