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You know what sucks II: Electric Boogaloo
15 years ago
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NaNo Novel: Here Falls The Thunder
I know this guy. He's smart, charming, intelligent, knowledgable, good sense of humor, is remarkably stable and mentally sound, holds a conversation well, good-looking, we share a lot of interests including video games and shit, and has a pleasant personality and a REALLY good-sounding voice.
What's the one problem?
He's fucking straight.
I know this because he often mentions this girl. They aren't steady, more off-and-on, but he likes her, says she brings some excitement to his life. And I'm sitting here thinking about how this cunt won't appreciate him the way I might and that she won't have nearly as much in common with him as I do and how fucking dare she think she's good enough for him and-
I realize that I'm getting pissy over someone I've never met and she might be a decent person and totally not a monster bitch the way I would like her to be just so I could justify wanting to try (and likely fail) to take her man. And then I feel even worse.
Sonuvabitch.
What's the one problem?
He's fucking straight.
I know this because he often mentions this girl. They aren't steady, more off-and-on, but he likes her, says she brings some excitement to his life. And I'm sitting here thinking about how this cunt won't appreciate him the way I might and that she won't have nearly as much in common with him as I do and how fucking dare she think she's good enough for him and-
I realize that I'm getting pissy over someone I've never met and she might be a decent person and totally not a monster bitch the way I would like her to be just so I could justify wanting to try (and likely fail) to take her man. And then I feel even worse.
Sonuvabitch.
*hugs*
I bet you'll find someone else like that, hun.
The bad news: if he is bi, there's still nothing less attractive to a person in an enjoyable relationship than a friend taking the "I think your SO is awful and I want to bone you instead, because obviously I'd be so much better for you" route -- it's unpleasant, it's ignorant, and it's entitled. (How can you be absolutely sure you'd be a better partner to him than she is?) Even if this woman is the biggest harpy in the Mountain Kingdoms, which it doesn't exactly sound like she is, he likes her and he's happy. Let him be happy, for God's sake.
It's also NOT a "theoretical-strategy", it was a moment of jealousy that I let get away with myself, wherein I entertained unpleasant thoughts about the SO.
It was never anything I planned to let him know about. He's my friend, I wouldn't even dream of endangering that.
Yes, it's not attractive that I thought of it, but being jealous means sometimes you think about doing things you'd never actually do.
I sound sappy, but I feel it's true.
Even if you feel guilty, at least don't doubt that you're a great guy. An awesome guy, that's for sure ^_^