Why is it that patience is so odd.
While I can be the most patient person you could ever meet... When it comes to myself and my life, I have no patience at all.

I've been learning to just sit back, and not force things. Give them that gently nudge you have to to get them going. But not force things because then you lose those opportunities

I only hope that thats right anyway. I know what I want, but I dont know if i'll get it in this life.
This is just me trying to be more human, to be real. Everyone has to be a little selfish and a little selfless.. And I hope i've found the right balance


I've been doing a lot better with things lately. Though some still gets to me. I'm still becoming more jaded to certain things, to some aspects of my life.
A lot of it now is just autopilot so to speak. I know what to do so i just do it, without thought. When i try to think i tend to draw a blank now, my mind has given up on overthinking things.. and sometimes thinking in general.


So, I just hope those little nudges get things going the way i'd like.