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WARNING! Emotional Rant!
15 years ago
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So I did it again I went to the STUPID vending machines and bought a bag of STUPID chips, they weren't even good. I paid $1.25 for something that didn't even fill me *reaches in her bag and munches on the pack of crackers she brought* Yeah that's right I have been living off of crackers while at work and though it is nice that I have lost a TON of weight and feel good about my self image it is NOT good that I am eating crackers. My life needs a serious crackdown.
I need to take control be a bit more bossy and not so damn passive aggressive... *pants* Ugh I am getting stressed I am not eating right and I am wasting money on vending machines and novelty beverages. I am not speaking up when something bothers me about ANYTHING as I am too nervous though this may come as a surprise to people even ones who know me in RL I am EXTREMELY shy and NEVER coem out of my shell Or if I do it's RARE. I have TWO councelling appointments friday which will be nice as I seriously just need to vent to someone BAD!
I miss Sultry BAD I am pretty good mostly but ugh it's so frustrating and enraging and I am having to hold up the entire world right now and that's fine I am strong and I know I can handle it it's just so frustrating and occasionally I just need to complain (like now) and I'm sorry you all have to read this I don't like being all "waaah life's hard" but it IS hard it's hard for all of us I know this we all have hardships but right now it's my turn not that I want a turn. I just keep myself busy I watch TONS of anime and read and.... work... that's really it but it works.
I am going to learn how to cook asian food as it is cheap and affordable plus Sultry loves asian food so I can cook it for her when she comes home and I can be the perfect housewife for her. I try to focus on that I am making myself better for her. When this is all said and done I will be so proud of myself and I am even now as I am 20 and handling incredible stress.
I am truly grateful to have all of you for sticking with me and I know I complain a tad more than I would like but after it's all done everything will be fine and know that I don't take a single one of you for granted.
*hugs everyone* Ok I'm done now, back to work for me.
I need to take control be a bit more bossy and not so damn passive aggressive... *pants* Ugh I am getting stressed I am not eating right and I am wasting money on vending machines and novelty beverages. I am not speaking up when something bothers me about ANYTHING as I am too nervous though this may come as a surprise to people even ones who know me in RL I am EXTREMELY shy and NEVER coem out of my shell Or if I do it's RARE. I have TWO councelling appointments friday which will be nice as I seriously just need to vent to someone BAD!
I miss Sultry BAD I am pretty good mostly but ugh it's so frustrating and enraging and I am having to hold up the entire world right now and that's fine I am strong and I know I can handle it it's just so frustrating and occasionally I just need to complain (like now) and I'm sorry you all have to read this I don't like being all "waaah life's hard" but it IS hard it's hard for all of us I know this we all have hardships but right now it's my turn not that I want a turn. I just keep myself busy I watch TONS of anime and read and.... work... that's really it but it works.
I am going to learn how to cook asian food as it is cheap and affordable plus Sultry loves asian food so I can cook it for her when she comes home and I can be the perfect housewife for her. I try to focus on that I am making myself better for her. When this is all said and done I will be so proud of myself and I am even now as I am 20 and handling incredible stress.
I am truly grateful to have all of you for sticking with me and I know I complain a tad more than I would like but after it's all done everything will be fine and know that I don't take a single one of you for granted.
*hugs everyone* Ok I'm done now, back to work for me.
yo thats good dat you want to learn asain cookin. Heck I love cookin and many guys dont. GO FOR DA GUSTO X3.
Also, learn to cook Indian foods, too. They can be inexpensive and tasty.
Problems? I'm glad it's not mission critical but I will still wear my concerned face.
Now, Indian food is awesome. Learning to make bread might help you too - and give you some interesting things to experiment with.