Something good happens, I have my max on roommates for FCN. I get to go to FCN, I got a partial and though the feet are really rough, I am so happy! I have a ride, a room in the con....seems like some fun people to hang with as well as folks to find I know are fun.

Now? Now this!

He hasn't eaten since Thursday, hasn't drank a lick of water since Friday....he's fallen up and down the stairs umpteen times. I've had to start carrying him so he could go potty outside. If he wasn't so old, I'd think he was sick. I know what it is and what I will have to do if I can't force anything into him. Or rather, I know what must be done...but I really wish I didn't. I'm not ready to say goodbye to my baby. I can't allow him to suffer though, so he's heading to the vet ASAP, he's getting an xray and a quick checkup, to be 100% sure it's not anything else. Then I'll probably hold my old puppy and watch him go...then figure out how the hell I am gunna bury him or afford to get him cremated. You know what's the funniest part? If it all pans out juust right, he'd probably be going the same day I lost my sister last year.

My best friend has tried hard to make me feel better, I love her extra for that. My heart aches. My cousin...she doesn't understand how/why it hurts me so much to lose him. How can I possibly be so attached to 'an animal'. He was/has never been an animal to me. He is and always will be my precious baby.

My backpay from since November...yeah. That's going towards getting a partial in honor of him from  qarrezel I don't know of anyone else who could capture him so beautifully and probably nobody else able to make something safe for glasses. I medically can not use contacts.

I am biding my time by finding free lines to color so I am busy. I need a normal mouse for this stoopit laptop. My boy is at home, I had my uncle take him for me because the two year old I sit loves him and she can't understand to leave him alone, though she is just hugging/kissing/petting him. I get to be home and hold him tomorrow all day, until we can get into the vet.