(my head has been buzzing lately and yesterday these words kept repeating in my head. they aren't for anyone in-particular i just have to get them down cuz they haven't gone away yet. and to those of you who read this i would like for you to comment say whatever you feel in your heart and/or what is on your mind. i want this to be an open forum, cuz i feel like i'm lost and trying to find my way.)


when you smile at me, i feel at home...
and when you kiss me i feel at peace...
when you hold me i can hear your heart beat...
when your fingers touch my skin i feel the sparks...
and when you're with me everything is okay with the world.

and then i blink...
i'm so scared to close my eyes...
i'm scared of resting only for a moment...
just to open my eyes again to see you sublimate...

if i close my eyes i can still smell your perfume...
when i sleep at night i feel your touch...
when i dream... i dream you're here...

why did you have to go...
why wouldn't you stay...
it hurts so much to feel this emptyness inside me...
the space that you filled when you were here...

a part of me wishes it could say i hate you...
to walk away and never come back to this place.
but in my heart i know that this is not true...
because if i could... i want just another day...
to hold you and kiss you...
to feel like you were mine.

and if you don't come back just know that it's okay...
i understand and love you just the same...
my heart is large for a reason...
just understand that i love you till the end.