So Iwoke up and listened to the song Numa Numa as I recall it being a really happy and motivating song. I turned it on this morning and listened to it as background noise a few times then I paid attention. I have never actually listened to this song the way I did moments ago. I must say I haven't cried in a month or so but the lyrics of this song cut me deeply and I had a mini breakdown. Specifically the lyrics "When you leave my colours fade to gray" as I am partially colourblind and only aocasionally do I have what are called colour flashes where I am able to see full coloour for a while sometimes it can linger and fade for most of a day, However since Sultry has been gone it doesn't seem that it is stimulated or happens much anymore.

I lost all my pictures, I am alone and without my heart. However I am not writing to say that I am sad and the typical "boohoo" I am typing this to say I am inspired to rebuild my photo library better than before I plan to go out today and create something, I will use this dark period in my life for art and I will further my works and make somehting truly amazing.

But really go listen to the remix of this song and you may be able to see what I mean and why it would make me cry. It is so weird I never noticed it before

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=slMVuRLcUa0&NR=1&feature=fvwp