If you didn't know, I dun sleep well sometimes, and just about 10 minutes ago a bad storm rolled in and is raging outside my windows so its not easy for me to sleep.

Next part, the 400 submissions piece where I asked for those 16 furs to be in the image? I'm scrapping it, sorry. I just do not want to do it anymore, it is one of those added stressers to my life that just doesn't need to be there. Thanks for all those furs who responded to the free cameo in the piece.

Third, I came to a realization earlier. I was feeling bad and stressed because I thought I was doing too much art, drawing too much stuff and that soon you guys would just get sick of seeing my junk pop up in your new submissions thing.

And I thought, hey, if I feel like drawing then I should. But, half the time I think I was drawing just to please other people or make sure something was posted in the gallery for you guys to look at and enjoy. I'm scrapping those ideas. What does that mean?

It means that I'm being selfish and drawing only for me. I'm not going to be drawing unless I feel like it and drawing the things I want to draw versus trying to draw things to please you guys.

Now is any of this your guys' fault? No, of course not. This is my fault for wanting to have those little comment messages and favorites and new watchers and all that jazz. I wanted to be popular on here, and thusly neglected my own needs as an artist and a furson. I love it when you guys enjoy my artwork, don't get me wrong there, I appreciate all the comments and favorites and time you guys spend looking at my stuff, but I've been drawing some of the pieces I have for all the wrong reasons. I wanted to win the popularity contest, which in itself is a selfish act but I also wanted to please everyone but myself.

I can't do that anymore, its just making me have mood swings up and left and down and right. Now, since my emotions are so interconnected to my art and dreams and such, I'm hoping that putting those drawing emotional venting needs first will help with my rabid to depressed mood changes.

Will this affect Wolf's Den? I'm not sure yet. I still have a few weeks worth for you guys to look at. Am I currently inspired to draw more of it? No, but it will come as a wave where I draw three pages at once so we'll just have to see when that comes.

What else will this change? Mostly the characters I draw. I'm going to attempt to only use strictly my own characters and settings and all that jazz, no outside influences so it is purely me on the page. I am addressing my needs head on, because I've pushed them so far back lately I don't know where to begin or end.

How long will this last? That, I dunno either. Until I feel like I've mentally gotten myself right. I don't want to be disappointed anymore because others don't favorite/comment/like or even look at a piece of mine. I need to get passed that point before I start to let other influences creep back into my artwork I think. I need to understand again that I do my artwork for me, and to help me as a furson express feelings that are hard for me to express in words, and practice to make myself better at what I love to do.

Does this make sense to anyone else?

Thank you to everyone in advance, I know you guys are thinking about me a little bit.

Aaaahhhh...storm's died down, time to see if I can get some rest...