I had to put my rat, Mocha-chino to sleep this morning.

She was four and a half years old.

I stayed up with her when I heard her convulsing this morning. I'm not sure why she started to but I know somehow in her convulsions, it paralyzed her back legs. She couldn't walk anymore but she was trying to. I couldn't watch her starve to death.

Lack of sleep and downer mood are back.
~Angel~