well...i had another dream of my soul-mate, which it had been awhile since i saw him in my dreams, say about nearly a month, and my fear came out again with spiders....


in the dream, i was cuddling up to keba (i'll use his nick name i gave him) with my head on his chest, my legs up to my chest while i sat on his lap slightly relaxing and falling asleep at the same time, i was naked, but we didn't get up to anything apart from cuddling, i could feel his hands on my sides and hips massaging my stiff mussles, and i purred, as i fell asleep.

but what got me most annoyed and upset is that i woke up finding myself in the same pose i was in the dream with keba cuddling my pillow as if it was keba himself i was cuddling, my legs had stiffened to say that i wasn't allowed to move from my pose until i woke up fully for the mussles to relax.

so when i was able to move i grumbled and sighed rather loudly, being i had fallen asleep around 5am, and woke up about 12pm, so i didn't get enough sleep, and went to move until i felt something crawling on my stomach....i had keba on microphone so he heard me squeal/scream from seeing one of the spiders i hate to death walking on me.

he had giggled because he had never heard me squeal/scream like i did before and he found it rather cute to hear me squeal/scream like i did, lets just say, i stuttered something about, "yeah it...was...spi-spi-spi...EEEEEEEEE-AAAHHHH!!!!!" and bolted out of bed squealing like a mouse being bitten by a cat.........

apart from that...my fear had came back with spiders because of that spider this morning ¬ .¬

and i might stream later, so who wants to watch?