...no wait, not THAT pump me up...okay that too but under the shadow of a hospital bill, need to build a career and possibility in going to a career school that could possibly kill me LITERALLY(it may as well be boot camp). While its left me unable to keep up in the communities I normally frequent I've also discovered I'm in short supply in confidence.

I make sure to hold true to my promises, its the time it takes to get it done that's bothersome. But I've been thinking instead of stewing in my own self-pity and want to see if I can hear from you guys and girls out there.

If you want to see me try to re-launch myself so to speak. Tell me in the comments, "Shoot for the stars!" To say it will perk me up is an understatement. A boost of ambition you could say.

Now for the not so modest furs. I need to build a portfolio. I'm nervous to say this but better to be out with it. I need original nude model pictures. Nothing nasty, poses that you think a model would legitimately do. Actually, underwear to cover bits is fine as well as long as I can practice using multiple types of media of different body builds with decent lighting to show light and shadow. I'll be serious about this when I type and say this. Anyone who sends an ORIGINAL detailed model photo that I can use to build my portfolio I will upload for them a finished and as realistic as possible image of that photo (charcoal, paint and ink will be my mediums), privately of course, unless you state otherwise. Only those who are 18 years of age or older can submit, for obvious reasons, obviously. I can't afford to just pay someone to be a nude reference for me and taking them off the internet is in poor taste when it comes to an artist's portfolio.

I don't expect much response to that but I won't be surprised if I'm proven wrong. I'm just trying to improve my craft as legitimately as possible within my means.

Anyone willing to donate $5 or more to( karmacentaur ) without the "()" on paypal will receive a full color image of Karma (just to warn you she is humanoid in this one), that I'm currently working on finishing very soon! This image was exclusively going to go into my portfolio so its in good taste and she's fully clothed. BUT money is scarce, and sadly this doggy admits that she needs a bone. At least Karma looks amazing so far and I can't wait to see how she will look finished myself. Yes, she has her big belly still.

I wouldn't call this as being back quite yet. Then again these are still steps which will help to lead me back towards increasing my activity here by merging what I want to do with what I need to do. Every one of you out there has helped me hone skills I otherwise would not be as well-versed in and dabble with taboos to better understand the workings of my curiosity to the more unusual subjects. To not let you in on my progress would be unfair, and I want to give back any way I can afford myself in doing.

For now, I have an important test coming up, so I'll come back here to check in but will not be able to respond till a few days from now. Here's to hopes of keeping all more updated.

~Faith