I've decided to drop out of college.. Its just too much stress right now, I can't concentrate for a second and honestly, I've still got a lot of work to do on my life here and now instead of preparing for the future, So soon I will be on here a little more and instant messengers as well..

I am completely happy with my choice, I haven't told my mother yet, But I will on the way to Dallas, I need to tell her everything thats been going on and what I'm going to do with my life..

I'm going to go back into college sometime in fall/winter this year or early summer next year.. I DO WANT TO FINISH MY SCHOOLING Its just that with so much going around me lately, the future is so uncertain and I feel like I can no longer plan THAT far ahead.. So I'm going to establish my present needs: Food, Car, Happiness, Spirtuality, A Daily Routine.

I don't know what I'm going to do Writing wise, I need to start writing again, it made me happy, it gave me a purpose and I haven't really had a single oppurtunity to do it lately..

My Job at Krogers is very promising right now, everyone at work LOVES me, I'm being trained to work in EVERY department which means I will NOT be expendable, I'm with the union anyway so it's already hard for them to try and fire me if they wanted and the owner and one of the managers have expressed interest in me staying on as a General Manager myself..

It's weird, I feel like I'm giving up or failing, but I know its the right thing I need to do now.. for myself, my sanity, and happiness.. Its FAR from a easy choice for me.