I dont get it ... I realize that I am pathic. That in order to feel better I have to vent on FB about my live. Tonight I come to realize this one sad fact... I am never going to find anyone for me... Never will the person I thought thought was it ended up breaking my heart and turning me into having trust issues.. I either too old, fat, lame, ugly, or something else for anyone.. ever.. ~sigh~ I am tired it .. I am tired of wondering if I am ever going to love again.. I just wish I had someone to call my own.. to come home too.. I am sick of being home alone and getting drunk by myself then playing games to escape my reality... reality huh.. I fuck hate it.. life is nothing more then a sick and twisted thing. All I try to do is what is right and I end up getting fuck over in the end.. nothing goes my way.. beside loading cars and working the only thing I am good at is playing video games.. What great person I am to dating among that people not in the fandom look at me that I am werid and if ever I mention I am furry women look at me werid and think I am crazy. ~curls up in the ball in corner and crys~ and once agian tonight I am just going end up crawling into my bed alone and no one to hold... I all am going to be the loney old man on the street yelling at everyone to get off his lawn and be miserable.. that is the reality I have to face..