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An apology
14 years ago
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I have thought about what would be the most effective way to this, I have decided to make this public to make sure that everyone I have wronged will be sure to see this.
First to
Kadziet-Kind-Wolf For the harsh way I have talk to. My own emotions were at play after a build up of confusion that has been happening for months. I had saddened your heart through aggressive words that had I no right to say. Your have a good soul and I have attacked it. I swear I do not think ill about you in any way, shape, or forms. You are a good person. I am sorry.
Second to
wolf95 Aw, buddy. I have sunken deeper than I thought was possible for me. I have have hurt both you and the ones you love. I also apologize for the interesting way I have blamed you for the pain I have had. My own pride has blinded myself from what it was really coming from. If you ever get to see Star Wars, I suppose you can call me Anakin.
Third to
7foxfire I have disrupted our friendship most of all. I have forgotten how much you need good friends. I have depressed you with my late personality. After being informed of this, I became angry say I couldnt be happy all the time. I failed to see this was a 24/7 state and I did not get better. And for interfering with your personal affairs. Please believe me when I say it "was" in good intentions. I have bounced around, giving you mixed feelings about who and what I am. But you were the one who made me sit back think. You asked me who I was. I used to be a completely different person. The guy that Christian used to play chess with late at night, and would talk to me about important events and philosophy. I was the guy you would come to if you had a problem because I would make you feel better. What happened to him. I miss him too. He was someone that everyone loved to be around...and now, I barely talk to anyone on here.
This experience has been a "whiplash" to me. I am going to become that friendly, bubbly, trustworthy, wise(lying) guy again. Because he is missed. I do not expect any of you to forgive me just like that. To tell you the truth, I wouldnt. But then again thats coming from my dark personality. I do ask you to give me a chance to undergo a transformation. And I ask that you help me bring back Patrick.
Even though I have had a twisted and messed up time this last 4(Four?! really? holy sh*t!)months. I have not stopped loving each one of you. Kadz I have not know you that long, but the same idea goes to you.
So I hope you find it you hearts to go easy.
This has been extremely embarrassing, this moodiness. I was never like this. I used to be....awesome(had to use that one, Christian)
with all love that can be expressed,
Paddy
P.S. This song made me think of how much of an asshole ive been. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OhvWRXl_Ex0
First to
Kadziet-Kind-Wolf For the harsh way I have talk to. My own emotions were at play after a build up of confusion that has been happening for months. I had saddened your heart through aggressive words that had I no right to say. Your have a good soul and I have attacked it. I swear I do not think ill about you in any way, shape, or forms. You are a good person. I am sorry.Second to
wolf95 Aw, buddy. I have sunken deeper than I thought was possible for me. I have have hurt both you and the ones you love. I also apologize for the interesting way I have blamed you for the pain I have had. My own pride has blinded myself from what it was really coming from. If you ever get to see Star Wars, I suppose you can call me Anakin. Third to
7foxfire I have disrupted our friendship most of all. I have forgotten how much you need good friends. I have depressed you with my late personality. After being informed of this, I became angry say I couldnt be happy all the time. I failed to see this was a 24/7 state and I did not get better. And for interfering with your personal affairs. Please believe me when I say it "was" in good intentions. I have bounced around, giving you mixed feelings about who and what I am. But you were the one who made me sit back think. You asked me who I was. I used to be a completely different person. The guy that Christian used to play chess with late at night, and would talk to me about important events and philosophy. I was the guy you would come to if you had a problem because I would make you feel better. What happened to him. I miss him too. He was someone that everyone loved to be around...and now, I barely talk to anyone on here.This experience has been a "whiplash" to me. I am going to become that friendly, bubbly, trustworthy, wise(lying) guy again. Because he is missed. I do not expect any of you to forgive me just like that. To tell you the truth, I wouldnt. But then again thats coming from my dark personality. I do ask you to give me a chance to undergo a transformation. And I ask that you help me bring back Patrick.
Even though I have had a twisted and messed up time this last 4(Four?! really? holy sh*t!)months. I have not stopped loving each one of you. Kadz I have not know you that long, but the same idea goes to you.
So I hope you find it you hearts to go easy.
This has been extremely embarrassing, this moodiness. I was never like this. I used to be....awesome(had to use that one, Christian)
with all love that can be expressed,
Paddy
P.S. This song made me think of how much of an asshole ive been. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OhvWRXl_Ex0
I accept you apology, but don't do it again, please. I wasn't hurt, basically, at all, and I was never mad or angry. I was just worried about the others I love who got their feelings hurt. I was also worried about you, and tried talking to you, but I guess you needed your space when you didn't reply. I respect that, but please be considerate of other people's feelings, too. (Fruit of the Spirit) . . . I was just trying to help everyone to see what was going on.
I must say that I guess over the months some things have changed about you, maybe because of your brake up with your BF and extended offline time during some periods, but I hope we can get things back to the way they were. If you still need some time and space, feel free to do whatever you feel you need to do. But remember, I'm here for you. You know you can always leave a message.
I'm glad you could clear things up publicly because I was getting a little confused as to why all my friends were getting their feelings hurt (when I turn my back for 5 minutes) and saying it was you. But I accept your apology and I really hope that we can get back to chatting and playing Chess again together. I forgive you, that's all that matters.
Hugs? *opens arms*
Thank you.
After writing this journal, I felt much but, and after meditating for half and hour, I woke up quite well.
Do not under any circumstances feel obligated to do anything. Last thing I want is for you to concentrate on me. I have reinvented myself to match what I used to be, and now can hit the reset button.
Yes *hugs*