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14 years ago
It's some time ago since I posted here last.
I guess it's about 2 month, 'may less or more.
I started to study with March and live now in Bochum. A nice city between Dortmund and Essen. I really enjoy it to live without my family, have my friends who surround me. Doing some activitys with 'em and not being alone all the day again.
I eat less choclate.. Still at the same habits like always, Sometimes at university, sometimes when I work on a picture or so. But less in other time. That's pretty good for me.
I get along with the work. Sometimes I do less then I amy should, but how to get along with it? Working on pictures, meeting friends, working for the University. It's my first semestre and I decided to keep doing how I do untill I got my feedback from the marks. Then I can better say what has to change and what not.
Even if it's going on all pretty I got the feeling something else does not.
Beside some Problems with my feelings I slowly feel as I do wrong turns in my friendships with others. I got the feeling that I may talk wrong, like I would talk chinese.. May I'm still too childish or hurt someone without knowing. Replys from some friends are rude or harsh - I think so.. They act sometimes strange - I think..
It makes me unsure if I'm going a right way or may should try something else. How to change yourself? On one hand it is easy on other it's still not.
If I got failours then it is the following ones:
1. Talking without knowing what I said until it left my mouth.. - Yes, sometimes I say things befor I though about anything. It just left me.
2. Left power of observation. Things passes by and I do not register. I don't see if smth is wrong or not. If I did smth wrong or someone else. I do not realize my environment.. sometimes.. or even often.
3. Bein childish and hyperactive.. Say call me "DT is a pain". Slowly I'm unsure if it's still a joke or if they want to say me friendly that I do so. That I should get more calmed down. My parents told me so often, that someone wants to say smth when he or she re-echo it the whole time that I slowly think so.
Maybe the speech: "You're like an elephant in a porcelainshop" fits to me.
I do realise it today a bit more, may 'cause I study social work. It's my dream to get a social worker and help.. But if the three points are the case, am I still able to practice as social worker?
I do not find so many atitudes I shall have - and onc eupon a time I though I would have 'em..
It stucks me sometimes back when I think about it. Unknowing if I'm doing the right things or not. If my way is okay.
Is this allright or do I have still to change me in some things? And if I have to.. Can anybody tell me how?
It's hard to try to think more about what ya talking... I still fall in old habitutes.
So far,
DT
I guess it's about 2 month, 'may less or more.
I started to study with March and live now in Bochum. A nice city between Dortmund and Essen. I really enjoy it to live without my family, have my friends who surround me. Doing some activitys with 'em and not being alone all the day again.
I eat less choclate.. Still at the same habits like always, Sometimes at university, sometimes when I work on a picture or so. But less in other time. That's pretty good for me.
I get along with the work. Sometimes I do less then I amy should, but how to get along with it? Working on pictures, meeting friends, working for the University. It's my first semestre and I decided to keep doing how I do untill I got my feedback from the marks. Then I can better say what has to change and what not.
Even if it's going on all pretty I got the feeling something else does not.
Beside some Problems with my feelings I slowly feel as I do wrong turns in my friendships with others. I got the feeling that I may talk wrong, like I would talk chinese.. May I'm still too childish or hurt someone without knowing. Replys from some friends are rude or harsh - I think so.. They act sometimes strange - I think..
It makes me unsure if I'm going a right way or may should try something else. How to change yourself? On one hand it is easy on other it's still not.
If I got failours then it is the following ones:
1. Talking without knowing what I said until it left my mouth.. - Yes, sometimes I say things befor I though about anything. It just left me.
2. Left power of observation. Things passes by and I do not register. I don't see if smth is wrong or not. If I did smth wrong or someone else. I do not realize my environment.. sometimes.. or even often.
3. Bein childish and hyperactive.. Say call me "DT is a pain". Slowly I'm unsure if it's still a joke or if they want to say me friendly that I do so. That I should get more calmed down. My parents told me so often, that someone wants to say smth when he or she re-echo it the whole time that I slowly think so.
Maybe the speech: "You're like an elephant in a porcelainshop" fits to me.
I do realise it today a bit more, may 'cause I study social work. It's my dream to get a social worker and help.. But if the three points are the case, am I still able to practice as social worker?
I do not find so many atitudes I shall have - and onc eupon a time I though I would have 'em..
It stucks me sometimes back when I think about it. Unknowing if I'm doing the right things or not. If my way is okay.
Is this allright or do I have still to change me in some things? And if I have to.. Can anybody tell me how?
It's hard to try to think more about what ya talking... I still fall in old habitutes.
So far,
DT
