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5th attempt at a journal post.
14 years ago
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This is my 5th journal attempt (last 4 I removed due to incohearancy). I am going insane at the moment. (no not literally) I am very anxious and starved for good conversation. I am finding myself contacting people I haven't spoken with in a while and trying ti kindle friendships. I have also become fond of things that I never thought I liked IE: Having people over and cooking for them which I know one doggie in particular who I do it for quite often ^_^
I think the absence of Sultry is starting to really take it's toll and I am looking for ways to occupy that emptyness as well as for stronger bonds with people. I am desiring closeness and NO not of a romantic kind! I am so tired by the home, work repeat cycle that I am going through. I want to get out more so I can feel... anything when I am alone for so long I start to lose my identity.. is that odd? I start to feel like, not me like I am just an entity of no specific nature just existing. I now see what people mean when they say "You need to get out more" I don't really need to "get out" I just need people, I find myself being more nurturing and wanting to spoil people a very motherly feeling... it's foreign and very odd but it gives me great satisfaction just to "take care" of people.... which is kind of nice that I am as it took me a long time to be able to feel like that again after being used so many times *grumpy face*
Anyway I know this journal isn't much but I had to post I mean really this is my 5th attempts :(
I guess my distrust is starting to melt away and I feel... vulnerable....
I think the absence of Sultry is starting to really take it's toll and I am looking for ways to occupy that emptyness as well as for stronger bonds with people. I am desiring closeness and NO not of a romantic kind! I am so tired by the home, work repeat cycle that I am going through. I want to get out more so I can feel... anything when I am alone for so long I start to lose my identity.. is that odd? I start to feel like, not me like I am just an entity of no specific nature just existing. I now see what people mean when they say "You need to get out more" I don't really need to "get out" I just need people, I find myself being more nurturing and wanting to spoil people a very motherly feeling... it's foreign and very odd but it gives me great satisfaction just to "take care" of people.... which is kind of nice that I am as it took me a long time to be able to feel like that again after being used so many times *grumpy face*
Anyway I know this journal isn't much but I had to post I mean really this is my 5th attempts :(
I guess my distrust is starting to melt away and I feel... vulnerable....
I'm sorry. Things will look up. Note me when you want. I wouldn't mind chatting with you.
Many of us feel we don't get out enough.
You might want to consider doing a once a week dinner gathering of some of your closer friends, sis. My mom and Stepdad used to do a once a month sit down dinner thing to help build community.
My drive is back! :O I am excited!!! Wait your off island? Are YOU going to be making it for FPS?