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A New (LONG) Journal
14 years ago
General
Just a new journal to update due to a lack of inactivity for quite a while. This will just be a briefing on things I've been doing and/or trying to do.
Interwebs
YouTube - Recently, I've been running into issues recording things that I mess around with on my computer. One in particular happens to be when I try to record me doing some sort of gaming, my computer bogs down so badly that I can't even get a decent video of game play. I have no clue what is wrong as scans are showing no issues. Possible I could have some sort of infection that goes dormant when a scan is initiated at which case I probably should do a boot scan or scan in safe mode.
Live Stream - Some time ago I decided to get a Live Stream account. However I've come to run into a few issues. First one being the aforementioned issue. Another being I have no clue what the hell to show on it. I had intended on doing some videos of me doing some gaming but crashed on the issue that the recorder could bog down my system performance and make a recording and the game itself thoroughly not enjoyable. I could figure that drawing would be a nice idea however my habits when it comes to drawing is a bit tedious and would take a ridiculous amount of time just to do a single drawing.
Games
Minecraft - I've been doing much of this recently but boredom sinks in really fast when I have nothing to really do. Recently on my server I have been running (which has only had 3 people on it including myself) I had created a small portion of the Pokémon world in it (in particular, the Ruins of Alph). Since completing that I've had nothing to do but admire the recently added weather effects.
SecondLife - This has got to be the most tiresome thing I've been taking activity in. I swear that Linden Labs is just wrecking the whole virtual worlds thing. When I log into SL, I don't want to be greeted to a UI that has a social networking feel. Fuck Facebook, fuck Twitter; stylizing things to be like this is complete bullshit. And it also does nothing for the lag issues the interface creates when going to my friends list and groups tabs.
FreeRealms - Who the fuck really cares? I know. I don't really either because its just a never ending grind of BS and quite honestly its irritating. All the talk about content on the official forums had better live up to the hype that its producing.
Earth Eternal - Man I've missed this game. And I just recently discovered that it is actually back under the name いきものがたり (Ikimonogatari) - Earth Eternal. I was hoping that I could possibly try it out, but it is currently in closed beta. Also really too bad that it is only it Japanese at the current moment. The game looks like it use to though the character designs have seemed to adopt a more chibi look to them; some of the character models sort of look terrible compared to what they once were. But that's not really a true concern to me, I just want to get back on there and have fun once again.
Champions Online - Pretty nice game really. Upon first acquisition of the game, I had played it pretty much non-stop. Was fun but as with any other game, interests just died down to a slow simmer and I've not been on there in some time.
League of Legends - Just recently was urged to try this game. I don't honestly know why I bothered to as it's not really my sort of game to play. The game seems fun, but I'm so far out of the funk that I just don't entirely get it. I can see why its popular, but it just doesn't seem to sink well for me. If I were to play with actual people, I'd be absolutely certain that I'd be a let down to the team and pretty much get rejected. But hey, as I said it's not really a game I usually play so it should be somewhat forgiven... Shouldn't I?
Left 4 Dead 2 - I love this game... but I prefer sticking to co-op games. As with LoL, I'm not one to really do PVP things. My only other issue here is the fact that I can't really do well on any difficulty other than easy... call me a pansy, I don't really care. Been recently trying out custom campaigns; many were quite fun, others were just bullshit (mostly caused through lack of direction). Sadly I don't really get much game time on this cause I don't really play with many others outside a circle of friends (mind you I only have 5 friends on there that I actually know well and of those I've only had game time with 3... add me on Steam perhaps to resolve this?).
Burnout: Paradise - The Ultimate Box - Pretty much the same thing as L4D2 but has been much less active. Due to lack of friends on Steam (and a lack of friends who actually like racing games) my activity here has diminished quite rapidly since I beat the game within a rough 24 hour period. Damn EA games for not bringing Big Surf Island to the PC platform... why on Earth did they leave the more popular platform without this much needed content? My only remaining hope is that someone patches one themselves and puts it up for download.
Offline
Drawings - Again some reason whenever I try to draw something I gradually grow with a sudden distaste for how it looks when I get close to finishing. I don't know why it happens, it just does. This in-turn affects my thought of streaming myself doing some drawings through live stream to be entirely not going to happen. I need some better ideas and I need to find a way for myself to get them onto my virtual canvas so I don't loose them so easily. Other things are that I hope that I can either finish said ideas so that when I decide to stop working on them, come back to resume and get to the point where I have no idea what I was originally trying to do for the drawing.
Move Progression - April 1st has been long passed. My overall move has been completed though now I have to figure out how to arrange things to get rid of all the boxes. The house is a total mess with all the things strewn about, and boxes piled about like a small city. Also at some point in time I'm going to have to seek employment. Dire need of money really sucks... I use to think I'd never have to worry about money issues but thanks to my mother, its a reality thats not really pleasant for me to look at. She'll pretty much live the high-life while me and my father struggle along trying to make due with what remains of the money that my father has to pay my mother for the next nine years or so. I'd do commissions of my art but my prices were honestly dumb because I really had a feeling I was over-charging for my stuff. This is mostly why I don't have any commission info anymore on my FA page. Oh well... hopefully I'll be able to find something to get some sort of income going my way.
Well... I think that is about all I'll blabber on about. One of my longest journals of stupid banter and mindless blubbering. Heaven knows I've probably put everyone off with all of this. Maybe not... could be worse... could be a Facebook link. Lastly, through all the browsing I've been doing around FA and dA, I had come to find that there has been a couple birthdays pass by. I'd like to wish all who has had a birthday recently a happy belated birthday.
Current Music: None
Current Mood: Sleepy/Tired
Interwebs
YouTube - Recently, I've been running into issues recording things that I mess around with on my computer. One in particular happens to be when I try to record me doing some sort of gaming, my computer bogs down so badly that I can't even get a decent video of game play. I have no clue what is wrong as scans are showing no issues. Possible I could have some sort of infection that goes dormant when a scan is initiated at which case I probably should do a boot scan or scan in safe mode.
Live Stream - Some time ago I decided to get a Live Stream account. However I've come to run into a few issues. First one being the aforementioned issue. Another being I have no clue what the hell to show on it. I had intended on doing some videos of me doing some gaming but crashed on the issue that the recorder could bog down my system performance and make a recording and the game itself thoroughly not enjoyable. I could figure that drawing would be a nice idea however my habits when it comes to drawing is a bit tedious and would take a ridiculous amount of time just to do a single drawing.
Games
Minecraft - I've been doing much of this recently but boredom sinks in really fast when I have nothing to really do. Recently on my server I have been running (which has only had 3 people on it including myself) I had created a small portion of the Pokémon world in it (in particular, the Ruins of Alph). Since completing that I've had nothing to do but admire the recently added weather effects.
SecondLife - This has got to be the most tiresome thing I've been taking activity in. I swear that Linden Labs is just wrecking the whole virtual worlds thing. When I log into SL, I don't want to be greeted to a UI that has a social networking feel. Fuck Facebook, fuck Twitter; stylizing things to be like this is complete bullshit. And it also does nothing for the lag issues the interface creates when going to my friends list and groups tabs.
FreeRealms - Who the fuck really cares? I know. I don't really either because its just a never ending grind of BS and quite honestly its irritating. All the talk about content on the official forums had better live up to the hype that its producing.
Earth Eternal - Man I've missed this game. And I just recently discovered that it is actually back under the name いきものがたり (Ikimonogatari) - Earth Eternal. I was hoping that I could possibly try it out, but it is currently in closed beta. Also really too bad that it is only it Japanese at the current moment. The game looks like it use to though the character designs have seemed to adopt a more chibi look to them; some of the character models sort of look terrible compared to what they once were. But that's not really a true concern to me, I just want to get back on there and have fun once again.
Champions Online - Pretty nice game really. Upon first acquisition of the game, I had played it pretty much non-stop. Was fun but as with any other game, interests just died down to a slow simmer and I've not been on there in some time.
League of Legends - Just recently was urged to try this game. I don't honestly know why I bothered to as it's not really my sort of game to play. The game seems fun, but I'm so far out of the funk that I just don't entirely get it. I can see why its popular, but it just doesn't seem to sink well for me. If I were to play with actual people, I'd be absolutely certain that I'd be a let down to the team and pretty much get rejected. But hey, as I said it's not really a game I usually play so it should be somewhat forgiven... Shouldn't I?
Left 4 Dead 2 - I love this game... but I prefer sticking to co-op games. As with LoL, I'm not one to really do PVP things. My only other issue here is the fact that I can't really do well on any difficulty other than easy... call me a pansy, I don't really care. Been recently trying out custom campaigns; many were quite fun, others were just bullshit (mostly caused through lack of direction). Sadly I don't really get much game time on this cause I don't really play with many others outside a circle of friends (mind you I only have 5 friends on there that I actually know well and of those I've only had game time with 3... add me on Steam perhaps to resolve this?).
Burnout: Paradise - The Ultimate Box - Pretty much the same thing as L4D2 but has been much less active. Due to lack of friends on Steam (and a lack of friends who actually like racing games) my activity here has diminished quite rapidly since I beat the game within a rough 24 hour period. Damn EA games for not bringing Big Surf Island to the PC platform... why on Earth did they leave the more popular platform without this much needed content? My only remaining hope is that someone patches one themselves and puts it up for download.
Offline
Drawings - Again some reason whenever I try to draw something I gradually grow with a sudden distaste for how it looks when I get close to finishing. I don't know why it happens, it just does. This in-turn affects my thought of streaming myself doing some drawings through live stream to be entirely not going to happen. I need some better ideas and I need to find a way for myself to get them onto my virtual canvas so I don't loose them so easily. Other things are that I hope that I can either finish said ideas so that when I decide to stop working on them, come back to resume and get to the point where I have no idea what I was originally trying to do for the drawing.
Move Progression - April 1st has been long passed. My overall move has been completed though now I have to figure out how to arrange things to get rid of all the boxes. The house is a total mess with all the things strewn about, and boxes piled about like a small city. Also at some point in time I'm going to have to seek employment. Dire need of money really sucks... I use to think I'd never have to worry about money issues but thanks to my mother, its a reality thats not really pleasant for me to look at. She'll pretty much live the high-life while me and my father struggle along trying to make due with what remains of the money that my father has to pay my mother for the next nine years or so. I'd do commissions of my art but my prices were honestly dumb because I really had a feeling I was over-charging for my stuff. This is mostly why I don't have any commission info anymore on my FA page. Oh well... hopefully I'll be able to find something to get some sort of income going my way.
Well... I think that is about all I'll blabber on about. One of my longest journals of stupid banter and mindless blubbering. Heaven knows I've probably put everyone off with all of this. Maybe not... could be worse... could be a Facebook link. Lastly, through all the browsing I've been doing around FA and dA, I had come to find that there has been a couple birthdays pass by. I'd like to wish all who has had a birthday recently a happy belated birthday.
Current Music: None
Current Mood: Sleepy/Tired
Btw incase you dunno who this is. I happen to be one of your watchers on deviantart under the name of tails90-da-kitsune
Suffice to say we struggle a lot, and it's really hard. Hard gets to ya after a bit.
I often wish for someone to talk to about it who understood what it's like out of experience. If you feel the same way, I'd love to talk to you about it. Maybe it'd help both of us feel better. If you prefer phone to email, send me your cell #, I'd love to know what you sound like IRL.
I did notice that you said something about your father having to pay your mother even though your mother is already rich...? That sounds like child support is going very much the wrong way... although I'm not a lawyer and as such cannot dispense legal advice per se, I can say that child support is based on income, so if you can definitively prove (in court, mind you) that your mother is earning more than your father, you'll at least see a lowering of that amount, if not an outright reversal of direction.
I'd say good luck, but it seems that such stuff avoids us both.
I'd do the cell thing but I don't have one anymore and I probably won't for a real long time until I actually get a job.
As far as the my father having to pay my mother, to put it simply, I had money in a bank account that she had created. Said account is possibly closed now and all of the money in there, including that which I had worked for when I did have a job is likely to be gone. I estimate that to be about fifteen grand. And if I remember right my father is supposedly to be paying my mother like ten grand a year from his retirement from the Navy (something like 50% of it goes to her). Pretty sure that could be classed as having it made.
Luck I suppose has its odd ways of finding us who need it. I know other have their own share of problems that can be equally bad or even worse than what I have currently, but I'm certainly not in a situation that it is absolutely dire that I get assistance from others. I'm not trying to make it is of utmost importance that all things that are going terrible for me should be sought with some sort of remedy of the friends I have here.
(1) you may or may not be able to do something about the navy payments. Depends on the rules, and that's well beyond what I know.
(2) your mother taking your money is legally called "theft" and you can file a complaint and get your dough back lickety split. If you can't afford an attorney, call Legal Aid (they're very good around here, YMMV tho). FWIW, at $15k it should be "grand theft" (this threshold varies by state) which is a felony. Again, this is not "legal advice" and you should talk with a legal professional. I'm just using common sense and the Internet
(3) No cell phone? Life these days without a cell phone is almost as bad as life without Internet! I *do* happen to have a spare phone if you're interested (it's free to you -- including shipping!), and there are a *lot* of pay-as-you-go services that would work with it. It's a former AT&T phone (specifically a Nokia 6030) that I used well for three years, and when I asked the rep at the AT&T Store if it was still locked after getting my new phone, he said (and I quote) "No. It's unlocked. After three years, we don't care what you do with it." Comes with three wall chargers (including a "travel" type), a car charger, an extra battery, and a couple of other accessories -- "handsfree" earbud, Napa leather case, and the original documentation.
Wish I had some computer stuff to help you out in that department, too, but all I've got that I could send you is old crap... like a beige Dell from ten years ago (!) that would cost a small fortune to mail because it's a desktop...
BTW do you play any "windows only" games? Apologies for not knowing from that Journal of yours, but I just don't know that stuff. My favorite games (aside from the Myst series) were made by companies that no longer exist... think Mecc
Lemme know.
(2) Misunderstanding on the money that was held in the bank account, the amount in total was fifteen grand however one grand of that was mines from the time I actually had a job that I was forcibly put into. Guess I didn't clarify the amount of what I had said was actually mines. My fault there, sorry.
(3) Well I had a cell phone but because I ceased answering the phone because of my mother constantly contacting me about things with my father which is actually something that shouldn't be done as communications through the recently divorced parties should be done through the lawyers that were hired to tend to the court hearing and situations of the sort. In return the phone was cancelled by my mother.
And I only play Windows games because I can't really afford a Mac system and probably have no real intention on going to one.
Again, "free" cell phone (I can't pay your bill, but I'll give you the phone) for you if you want it.
Regarding windows, I was wondering if switching to linux wouldn't alleviate some of your computer woes, although linux certainly has its own set of demons to be tamed. Since windows games won't work on linux without (inevitably very temperamental) emulation of a windows environment... if you're a heavy gamer then fagheddaboudit. Full disclosure: I still use windows mostly myself, since a couple of my own art programs don't work in linux and endlessly swapping would be a pain in the posterior. (Dualbooting is possible but also can be risky depending on what version of linux you prefer.)
Then again, I *am* sort of linux obsessed right now...