So I have a lot to say in this journal. :) First of all, happy Easter everyone! Red and I will be heading to lunch shortly, so hopefully we'll be able to stop somewhere and get chocolate bunnies. Mmmmmmm chocolate bunnies. :D Also, praise Jesus and all that jazz, I won't go too much into it, but I'm happy for the true meaning of the holiday as well. ^^

I made it back home last night, after a 650 mile drive from Indiana. I was so tired. This past week I've driven a massive triangle between North Carolina, Texas and Indiana, as well as several day trips in each of those locations to deal with funeral events. Which brings to mind, that yes my mother did pass. Thankfully it was peaceful and painless, and we all got to say goodbye. She passed away April 17th, 2011 - ten days before her birthday, at Methodist Hospital in Fort Worth, Texas. It was the result of multiple organs failing at once - her liver, lungs, intestines and kidneys. Even if she had lived through all this, she still would never really be herself again, and it wouldn't be the life she wanted. She said so herself. It was sad, and I'm still shaken from it, but I think this really is for the better. I'm thankful for this because where she's at now, she'll be able to walk, eat, drink and talk again, and she'll have both arms with which to hug her loved ones. Now she's with Mama and Papa too. I love you Mom... I'll see you again when I meet up with you, I promise. I also hope you enjoyed the song I finally got to play for you. :)

I'll be okay, by the way. Truthfully I knew this day would come. For the past three years mom has been through surgery after infection after illness, and it's all taken a toll on her, and we all knew it. We knew we were really just buying time, so we simply tried our best to enjoy the time we had left with her to the fullest. I really don't think we did, and I regret that, but I'm trying not to think about that. I'm thinking most about the time we all did have together, and all the wonderful things we've done and all the good times. That's how I get through things like this - I remember that although I'm currently sad, the sad times are but a drop in the bucket compared to all the good things life has to offer. In the end, everything will be all right. ^^