ok im sick of this constanly stuck at home 5000 miles away from my girl with no friends just wasting away in my chair work provides little entertain ment if only the money required to see my girl again ive lost all intrest in drawing due to lack of any skill cant even draw the simplest things and with no perpose or direction to to keep me going yes there people who are less fortunt than me who would make better us eof the life i hold which make me some what selfish but alas i cant helpn but feel sorry for my self so wold say its a trait that all of us have but yet i se others who would put every one befor them selves some day i hope to better my self but that time seems so far away i some times whis to just fade away as if i was never there may it would be better that way i wouldnt be holding any one back like my girl maybe she would be better off happyer if she had never met me oh well it seams i will have to wait and see what the twists and turns the ups and downs of life bring me