I'm stuck here at my house, on a holiday, no human contact except what's taking place through this machine.

Part of my family is in jacksonville, fl because my sister's having a baby. I haven't heard a word since thursday beyond that.

My mate is also attending a funeral, there was a death in his family. I've at least been in contact with him, and he seems okay. He's visiting a friend today on the way home, and I'm glad. He could use some comfort right now, and it just fucking kills me that I can't be there to give it to him.

I could use some comfort too, honestly. I've been so fucked up about business shit the last two weeks, not to mention being worried about my Mom, my sister, my man..... I had a full blown panic attack over something personal last night that's probably nothing, because I'm stuck here, alone, no way to get help if anything happens. And what's really fucked up is I'm actually jealous of my mate for getting to go out and be with people. Christ, how fucked up is that?!

I am desperately lonely right now.

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