I'm having a horrible Spring Break.
My family has been getting into more fights, I've been having less time to do my work, and thanks to previous clauses of depression - looking at certain things or hearing certain songs makes me burst out into crying fits. Just last night, I saw a recent picture - just posted - of my friend David (fuck hiding it) and it was a tag by his "girlfriend". After a minute I threw my phone (FB mobile) and I start crying so hard. This went on for nearly an hour and after that I couldn't sleep. I didn't end up going to sleep until 6AM. It's been like this a couple days before vacation and is still going on.
Also, I've been gaining more weight. I'm 20 lbs away from 300 and it's geting worse. It's weird how it's not showing, which does place concern. I'm over-eating and sometimes I accidentally throw up from pushing it too far. I might be going to the doctor's soon... it seems like an eating disorder.
I'm sorry, I hate doing this and I hate stirring drama but I need to get this off my chest somehow and currently this is the only journal I can write in. I did have a diary...
I need some sort of distraction. Something to get all this shit off my mind until my mate gets here. I would go to my sister but she's got enough on her plate, and Mom is going senile.
Anyway, I'm done for now because there's just too much to post. A 16 year old shouldn't feel like she's 30. Bad enough I HAVE to act like I am.