The last month or so has not been one of my best. Unfortunately I was hit by a truck at a light, and that's caused some problems in my life. Missing work, physical therapy, a lawsuit, among other things.

I say that to give an idea of my emotional state in recent days. A couple weeks ago now, I was talking to someone here on FA, and then we started talking over IMs. Over the course of our conversations, we ended up developing feelings for eachother. She told me that she loved me and would never leave me, and I believed her. If anyone knows my relationship history, that's hard for me to do.

Well, everything was going good until yesterday. She said that she was going to "brb" at one point, then a few minutes later, I'm blocked from her on every channel. I'm assuming it was just a few minutes because she went offline and I couldn't see message updates that some IMs do. I think the worst part is that she never even told me why she did all this.

Ever since that time yesterday I felt sick and horrible. My stomach was in knots and it was everything I could do to just go on with the day. I went to bed and did a lot of thinking. I still feel really bad and depressed about the situation, but I think it's also partially because I'm really fragile due to this recent car wreck.

I'm not putting this up to try and get sympathy or anything or anything like that, I just needed to vent. That's also why I'm not using names, I don't want people getting mad at her and "attacking" her. I still don't know why it happened, but I think just letting it all out is going to help. Thank you to anyone who read this.