A little love goes a long way.
14 years ago
General
I just wanna say that even though I can't respond to everyone who has given me some form of appreciation over the past few days.. thank you.
While not overly depressed about my work, I do have a lack of confidence when it comes down to my creative side. I've always thought pride was a bad thing to have because it hinders a person from seeing that they can improve. Lately I havent posted much finished work because I've been busy on my sketching process to put pieces together conceptually faster than I've been able to in the past.
Part of the reason (most of it) of my lack of confidence and pride is mostly because I have failed at finding appropriate entry level jobs in my field of work.. probably my entire life. I've worked at gas stations, steel fabrication, farms, retail, refereeing, cnc fabrication, but never anything really relevant to my goals. The past 2 summers I've attempted to find co-op (internships) and failed. I could probably blame the economy.. or the fact that I've not tried hard enough, but fact remains, it leaves a dent in you whether you like it or not. It's frustrating knowing you left an interview after giving them multiple good reasons to hire you, and not getting a call back. I feel like I deserve it.. but perhaps that's the failure of an attitude that many people in my generation carry. I'm still learning and trying to do better. Giving up just means failure, which is not something I'm ready to accept. If university has taught me anything, its that this is an opportunity not just to do well in my classes, but to learn and develop my own skills outside of school.. because the concepts just won't cut it.
Sorry for the rambling. I just wanted to say that I do appreciate all the things so many people have done for me. Sincerely, I do. I wish I could do something in return for all of you. My attention is so often diverted from conversations to games to art to projects to life that I often feel that I'm letting people down because I can't hold a conversation.
Not looking for asspats here, even though I'll probably end up getting them. I just felt I should express my gratitude and explain my standing. :)
Cheers. I wish you all a good summer.
While not overly depressed about my work, I do have a lack of confidence when it comes down to my creative side. I've always thought pride was a bad thing to have because it hinders a person from seeing that they can improve. Lately I havent posted much finished work because I've been busy on my sketching process to put pieces together conceptually faster than I've been able to in the past.
Part of the reason (most of it) of my lack of confidence and pride is mostly because I have failed at finding appropriate entry level jobs in my field of work.. probably my entire life. I've worked at gas stations, steel fabrication, farms, retail, refereeing, cnc fabrication, but never anything really relevant to my goals. The past 2 summers I've attempted to find co-op (internships) and failed. I could probably blame the economy.. or the fact that I've not tried hard enough, but fact remains, it leaves a dent in you whether you like it or not. It's frustrating knowing you left an interview after giving them multiple good reasons to hire you, and not getting a call back. I feel like I deserve it.. but perhaps that's the failure of an attitude that many people in my generation carry. I'm still learning and trying to do better. Giving up just means failure, which is not something I'm ready to accept. If university has taught me anything, its that this is an opportunity not just to do well in my classes, but to learn and develop my own skills outside of school.. because the concepts just won't cut it.
Sorry for the rambling. I just wanted to say that I do appreciate all the things so many people have done for me. Sincerely, I do. I wish I could do something in return for all of you. My attention is so often diverted from conversations to games to art to projects to life that I often feel that I'm letting people down because I can't hold a conversation.
Not looking for asspats here, even though I'll probably end up getting them. I just felt I should express my gratitude and explain my standing. :)
Cheers. I wish you all a good summer.
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you dont NEED to do something in return hun.
Having self-confidence doesn't have to mean being egotistical. When it comes right down to it, faith in yourself is the one thing you have to hold on to.
But that doesn't mean other people can't have faith in you, too. Hang in there, big guy!
And our conversations are poignant and enlightening~
Yours R.o.P.
In any case, I'm glad to hear you're feeling the love around here. Good luck with everything! :}===<
The only real advise I can offer is to have an almost insane view of sticking to it, and always pushing forward with what you want to do, because eventually one day, you will look around yourself and suddenly discover that you are in fact right where you wanted to be. Suddenly being dropped into a perfect situation? Yeah, that only happens in the movies, or for people with far too much money on their hands. For those of us that live in reality, a good deal of sweat and tears need to be paid first.
Good friends, people that actually care about you and your well-being will be your best assets while you're in this time. Care for them and guard them well, as when you get down, and you will get down, they will be more valuable to you then anything else.
That's all I can think to say, personally I think you've got a good lot of talent in your repertoire, and you /will/ see the culmination of your desires.
And blood. Sweat, tears, and blood for some of us.
and we all lurv you and your art
(I did read it of course)
Job hunting is never easy, and rarely fun. Especially if you're starting out and have absolutely no credit or don't know anyone in the same kinds of business you're trying to get into. You just need to keep applying, and don't give up. For art jobs, you need to keep applying, and keep creating works of art and concepts at home you can use in your demo reel and the like. These things, I'm quite certain you already know. I'm quite certain, you're already doing from the sounds of it. =)
The other thing to keep in mind is that you may want to keep your options more open than you are. What I mean by this is try and figure out where else your talent also applies even if it's not exactly what you're looking for. The reason being, it's just more fire power when you go apply for the jobs you really want. Experience > Schooling, basically. Have you considered working for a "stamp creating" company? Are there other companies that require artist to make them work, but its not your kind of art? Landscaping maybe? Design and architecture? Though I imagine those fields may require some other knowledge too. I don't know, I'm just trying to help spawn more ideas in your head for places to look!
I also am not fully aware of how much socializing you do, but this helps too. To get my job, I literally went to a gaming store EVERY weekend and played board games with people. I stayed after the games, and had fun talking about their mechanics. This landed me a job eventually as a game designer. I'll freely admit, I was fucking lucky man. But, it goes to show that getting out there into social circles is a huge help in finding that job you want. Go to outside classes, or find outside projects you can join up at. Join an Indy group making a cool cartoon, or a game. All these things help.
Again, I don't know exactly what it is you are looking for, or looking to get into, but I can tell you a little bit about my industry. Game developers are looking for someone who can make concepts quick, and make good ones. They're looking for people who are capable of making detailed concepts as well. What's more important though I think, is that they are looking for people who are able to adapt and draw in the game's style. Not your own style. Do you have pieces in your reel that demonstrate you can adapt to copy a style successfully? This will likely help you out in the long run.
Anyhow, hope my rambling helps or gives you a few more ideas. If you want me to ask the artist where I work what's important in a job applicant, or what they're looking for, you know where to find me =) Other than that, keep it up. You're a talented individual, and you've come a long ways.
Naturally this is an extremely pessimistic point of view, not everyone unemployed is literally applying for every open position in Pensacola. Some of them are attempting to do what they've wanted their whole lives, also pursuing a dream job, by looking at the existing system, giving it the finger, taking their developed skill sets, and going for entrepreneurial ventures or freelance artistry. Pensacola's not a bad market for it either, if you can appeal to the tourists =3
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*asspats*
The world is an unfriendly place sometimes, and getting your foot in the door is often the hardest step. Many of us have been in your situation, so keep up the tenacity. Hell, be forceful!
Oh and *asspat* YOU GOT A PURDY ASS.
:P
I mean, not bullshit made of nowhere, just make your C.V. more "pretty" to their eyes. Take care and keep pushing! ^'===='^
and just my view on the pride matter, I believe that a little bit of pride cant hurt, if its for the right reason. Im proud of every thing Ive drawn, not because I believe that Im the best or that what I just drew is the best thing ever. Hell I still got a long way to go, but cause I can see improvement in every new piece. So basically your work is great and varied, you can be proud of that.
...you already know much more than many others of your generation. Take heart and build upon the strength that you know you already have. }:=)
...On that note, I must say I'm very proud of you! :D
first of all don't say "i've tried and failed" because you can't fail at life, living isn't a task to be accomplished, nor is a competition to be won... you can even say "i didn't get the opportunity i was looking for" but not "i failed", specialy because the lack of opportunity is no man's fault.
if you look too hard, your vision will blur and you won't see your opportunity even if it stands on your nose.
you listed some jobs up there, if you worked on them, you have reference, look for your previous bosses, anything that tell'em your employer you're not some average joe.
and last of all, you can't do anything with a hot-head or a dead-cold-depressed mind, meditate, dedicate some time for yourself, once you are lighter star looking, but most important thing is: "obligations are boring" so start to look for a job when you don't feel so pressured by it like an obligation, do it at your own pace, and then, on a normal day you'll recieve a call from some big-shots from a big game company and be hired XD (okay, exagerrated a bit, but that is the poin of cheering up!)
if you need me, i'm right here X3