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So I might be trans, but not much would change XD
14 years ago
I've been Hellbent, baby/
So I'm considering looking into some kind of therapy. It would be nice to discuss how I feel about not always being in the right body. ^^ I don't expect anything special as far as talking to/about me. I'm kind of cool with either pronoun and I'm kind of lazy about trying to look like a guy. If I were actually trying to pass on a day to day basis I might get upset, but it's really whatever people are ok with. I know who I am, even if it changes sometimes and I'm not always miserable in a female body. I'm too scared by surgery to really mess with any of that stuff, at least not for a long time. And I like to wear girly shit, I'm not trying to confuse people or anything, but I do like lolita looking shit, I just imagine myself as a dude cross dressing when I wear it XD
I feel like ya'll should know, since I'm more open about stuff around my furry friends, and I am interested in meeting others with similar, uh issues? It's not something that I'm trying to 'fix'. I'm happy with myself as a person, just happen to be in a body that doesn't match my brain. As far as I can tell, I'm pretty ok with my situation and I don't think it is a bad thing. For now I am content to think about things and decide what to do. It's a little weird because I don't feel like it's as important to actually change my body like some of my trans and trans-leaning gender-queer friends. But it's definitely something I'm thinking over and I like to hear what friends have done and what it might mean if I were going to do similar things.
I hope this makes sense XD I'm kind of weird about discussing feelings and shit, but somethings writing it isn't much easier, lol!
thanks all,
~Aa
I feel like ya'll should know, since I'm more open about stuff around my furry friends, and I am interested in meeting others with similar, uh issues? It's not something that I'm trying to 'fix'. I'm happy with myself as a person, just happen to be in a body that doesn't match my brain. As far as I can tell, I'm pretty ok with my situation and I don't think it is a bad thing. For now I am content to think about things and decide what to do. It's a little weird because I don't feel like it's as important to actually change my body like some of my trans and trans-leaning gender-queer friends. But it's definitely something I'm thinking over and I like to hear what friends have done and what it might mean if I were going to do similar things.
I hope this makes sense XD I'm kind of weird about discussing feelings and shit, but somethings writing it isn't much easier, lol!
thanks all,
~Aa
and kudos for using gender-queer! you're the first in the fur community i've seen not revert to GAY or TRANS as a label :D rock on!
and fuck gender stereotypes °v°
glad yer scared of surgical stuff like that as well though :)
seriously though; if i had to ever put a label on it; i would always have thought ya a tomboy or punker gal that was like how 90% of how my female friends are. go by my rule of life: "live for yourself, only please others if its what you truly want to do for yourself." selfish, but its the best way to live without worrying about regrets. :)
if i register you in my hospital system...what gender must i put since i only have M, F, and U.....(why no T?! lol)
I say whatever makes you happy. English needs more neautral pronouns, like japanes.
and yeah... it's a catch 22, because even though I know I'm a guy inside, I'm worried that people will question this because i do like dressing girly and cute and sewing and I'm not good at math ><
But alas, this is a very wide topic. If you are really interested in my opinions, feelings and thoughts about me being ftm or not being ftm, than you might like to read my blog, as I don't want to write novels on your fa screen. You can find it here: http://black-goat.tumblr.com/
Thank you again!
But there's an important thing my doctor told me: Becoming fully male is always a process and always has to do with learning to be you and also learning to be male. Puberty is the most important phase in life to learn how to behave. It imprints us. Even if we are of another gender inside, we imrpint in puberty and if we find out later that we can't live like this, we will have to think around a corner and play a role, even if this role is our desired role in society. So don't worry too much, but also don't worry too less. If you are trans, you might have to change yourself and learn new things even if you will be yourself more than ever in the end.
I think if you already feel like a male, drugs or hormones won't really enhance much there; mostly just make physical changes, which you seem to not care too much about. Not saying you shouldn't try it, but I think if friends and others can make you feel like a man, that'll give you the most benefit.