I was planning to go to the furbowl tonight, but the two hour drive was starting to eat away at me.

No one wanted to carpool with me and the one chance I had to join a carpool I was declined because of space. I really should have a 'free ride' pass from all the carpools ive done for other people ;;

I love being in my suit too much >:

This weekend better get better ._.
Despite fau brightening up my next weekend, it's also making me nervous. A 6 hour car ride to go to a con, trying not to get stuck in traffic, and the possibility of driving alone. At least I can look forward to two awesome roommates.

Think my head is so tired of thinking. I have a lot of things to think about and im tired of thinking. Its one of the reasons why I quit school, besides the delicious amounts of mental breakdowns during my monthly low mood..

Where is my mate going to stay while he visits me?
Am I really going to move with Irime and Kit?
When am I planning to get a job?
Why dont I have interest to finish all the art I owe?
Will my dad forgive me for being a huge disappointment?
Will my dad stop being so logical for once and let me do what I want?
When will I be strong enough to move out of the house?
Can I learn to keep friends?

I continuously shift back and forth between my old self and my medicated self. Its hard to know what is a good answer and what is something I dont want to do. I feel like I'm in this wasteful limbo as I try to figure out my life...