It's coming up on my 7th anniversary, and I love my husband more than ever. But man it hurts at times.

I've gone through the fires. Having to live so far away and wondering if he was looking at someone else. Seeing him every 3-6 months if I was lucky for literally YEARS. Worrying about different folks in his life who didn't like me that much (and it showed years later.) I went through those fires. He's mine now, as much as that is hard for me to believe at times.

But it hurts. Oh it hurts. Right now he's working for no paycheck, and I've got to stretch what's in the bank to feed the kids and us (which is scary) for possibly 6 weeks, and yet I sit here at night more missing his arms around me and not wanting to go to an empty bed. Especially on nights when he's been gone earlier than normal.

How can love continue to leave you aching and hurting as you've been together years upon years upon years. I hear so many saying that there's 'itches' and it doesn't, but... I miss him.