I fell in love. I fell in love, but I don't want to. I want to deny this feeling.
Poor of the poets that need to feel this pain to make beautifuls poetries...
But I'm not a poet, I not even an artist. So why I fell in love?
Sorry, my Lord, 'cause I have a stupid heart that loves...
I deny this love, I refuse to fall in love with him, so why... Just tell me why my heart keeps sufering,keeps all the sorrow, and hurt itself every single time that I see him? This pain just make me insane. Makes me want to hurt myself, to make the blood flows out of my body, to make me feel a worst pain in my body just to forget for a moment of that pain. But the body's pain pass, like a storm pass to give space for the sun. But this pain just doesn't stop. I've tried and tried everything but this pain just don't leave me. This pain makes wish to be dead, but this is just will not work out. Don't even the death can stop this pain on me,on my soul...
I don't want to fall in love. I don't want to love anymore. I just want to have peace of heart and mind. Please, God, tell me why I fell in love with him? Have I did something wrong? I just can't control myself anymore...
I can't sleep without see he in my dreams, I can't focus anymore, I can't hear a song that don't reminds me his voice. Please, set me free from this. Burn my loving hear and throw it's ashes on the wind to never come back anymore.
Call my name, punch my face, make me bleed, but break the spell... Break this spell that bound my heart to his feets... Break the spell that dominates my soul... Break this damn magic that make me with to be with him... To hold him with my arms, to tell him my secrets, to just be near him...
I don't want to fell in love. This love don't let me live my life. This love is ruining everything around me... I refuse this love. I don't want to lose everything again... please, not again...
God.. I fell in love, please, forgive me...