I know some of my friends feel I hate them or they thing I don't trust them but I wanted to let you few know I don't hate anyone and all of you I love and If I write quite depressed or feel abandon at times I just feel like that at times but to the select few here that are reading this Don't feel I hate you or feel you betrayed me. I'm not pointing the figure at you If I feel down and sad I feel it's always actually is my fault and I do take responsibly for it. and it's sometimes how I feel at rare times I scare people away. I'm not sad right now but I feel like a ass for making some select friend feel that way. I feel responsible for hurting a few select friends' feelings especially one I care about the most. Yea I always will care for all my friends :3 I know your reading this. I wrote this to let you know I could never hate ya.

I don't mean to go Emo at times and such but theres a lot of time I feel alone. but I'm working on improving my life I'm at the gym and I'm lifting weights and such. I have reduced weight and blood sugar.