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been here for almost three years and never used the journal
14 years ago
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lol.
yea, im not mutch of a social-mediaphile. i had a myspace page back when it was popular, but i havent been on that for four years. just not my thing i guess.
im a very internal person, so showing my true colors is hard for me to do, i guess thats allright considering my job and who i am, but it sucks becuase i only have a few people i trust enough with my feelings. luckilly, the internet is a different beast, i can be whomever i want anonymously, and nobody really cares. yes i am lonely, and yes i cant wait to feel love again and hold someone in my arms.. to be able to cry and laugh freely. i miss that.
my relationship with my family is fleeting at best. i havent seen or heard from my mom in 10 years. she is the only one who doesnt know anything about my life right now (and i dont care to tell her...). the rest of my family knows im gay and (thank god) supports me in whatever i do. since i joined, i feel like i am growing farther and farther apart from them, but i feel like im in a better place, and the millitary was a good choice. i used to miss them alot, not so mutch anymore.
i think im going to use this journal as another outlet. partly because i am anonymous here on fa, and partly because you get some feedback from whatever your doing here, be it negative or positive.
there are only a few furs that know me personally, one i have never met, but is my best freind five years strong. another was a yiffmate and boyfreind, the one who changed my life and showed me who i really am (also introduced me to nightwish), we parted ways.. and i still love him, but i havent seen him in so long... there is a small but close gorup of furs in alaska who have only met me fleetingly, but i had one of my social meltdowns and they never saw me again... its sad really, because they are nice people, and i would love to have the experiance again. there are two more now that i think of it. one is in the millitary and the other is canadian, both know me well, but i havent talked to them in a while either.
i am currently deployed right now, i have about three months left. there is someone there who says he is waiting for me (and he thinks it hot that i am furry ^^ ).. i hope things turn out for the better. like i said, id love to hold and be held again.
yea, im not mutch of a social-mediaphile. i had a myspace page back when it was popular, but i havent been on that for four years. just not my thing i guess.
im a very internal person, so showing my true colors is hard for me to do, i guess thats allright considering my job and who i am, but it sucks becuase i only have a few people i trust enough with my feelings. luckilly, the internet is a different beast, i can be whomever i want anonymously, and nobody really cares. yes i am lonely, and yes i cant wait to feel love again and hold someone in my arms.. to be able to cry and laugh freely. i miss that.
my relationship with my family is fleeting at best. i havent seen or heard from my mom in 10 years. she is the only one who doesnt know anything about my life right now (and i dont care to tell her...). the rest of my family knows im gay and (thank god) supports me in whatever i do. since i joined, i feel like i am growing farther and farther apart from them, but i feel like im in a better place, and the millitary was a good choice. i used to miss them alot, not so mutch anymore.
i think im going to use this journal as another outlet. partly because i am anonymous here on fa, and partly because you get some feedback from whatever your doing here, be it negative or positive.
there are only a few furs that know me personally, one i have never met, but is my best freind five years strong. another was a yiffmate and boyfreind, the one who changed my life and showed me who i really am (also introduced me to nightwish), we parted ways.. and i still love him, but i havent seen him in so long... there is a small but close gorup of furs in alaska who have only met me fleetingly, but i had one of my social meltdowns and they never saw me again... its sad really, because they are nice people, and i would love to have the experiance again. there are two more now that i think of it. one is in the millitary and the other is canadian, both know me well, but i havent talked to them in a while either.
i am currently deployed right now, i have about three months left. there is someone there who says he is waiting for me (and he thinks it hot that i am furry ^^ ).. i hope things turn out for the better. like i said, id love to hold and be held again.
