Broken hearts are not easily mended. I know because mine has been broken many times before. Each time it feels like a part of myself is ripped away. A part that I will never get back. Like that person has stolen a piece of my soul.
Sometimes I would swear that my heart couldn't be broken again. That it was numb to all their advances, their attempts to heal. My heart was frozen and no one could break the ice. It would take people months, or years to get past my shield. For me to call them friend and then it moved from there. But it seemed to always end in sorrow and tears and pain for me.
Until recently when I found Zeek and Modorro I thought I could not be loved. There was some part of me too cold to be loved by normal human hands. A part that they couldn't understand, and so they hated it. They wished for me to be gone and so I faded away into almost nothing in the back of my hosts mind.
So now I am nothing but a shadow again. Just a silent voice inside her mind watching her work and waiting for a time where i can come out and we can be ourselves. But we can only do that with certain people. And because of this I feel alone, all alone.