*Another Spoiler, if you dont like Drama then don't read this Journal*



I had a run-in with the police and paramedics a couple days ago when two of my friends got into a fight and I tried to break it up, me and my male friend, Tyler, we're really drunk and he and Megan got into an altercation, I was... regrettably on Shrooms at that time too, and I don't care for judgement on this either... Anyway, so me and tyler were pretty emotional because we were FUCKED UP!! XD

And it felt like everything I did, was wrong, and everything in my life I've done wrong, and all these negative feelings came rushing to me, now, I have a past that involves many things being done to me and I do my very best to not drag me down, but I was trying to protect two people that I care about from each other, so I.. attempted something I shouldn't have and they ended up saving me from myself..

Tyler headbutt me back to sanity, which I thanked him for.. and apologized at the same time,

Which by the way, I gotta apologize to you all two for doing something so stupid, but you must understand I am hurting a great deal, So much death in my life recently, and its getting worse, now my grandma's health is failing and by the end of this year I'll only have 1 of my 4 grandparents left.

Now this brings me to THE GOOD NEWS!!!!


I'm going to fix myself, Today is my first day of soberty, now I do have cravings to just down half a bottle of Vodka and sniff some rush, but I aint gunna do, I'm selling all my shit except my weed pipe, after I get my medication and threapist and I return to normal I'm going to SEE if I can do that without getting into anything else, if it makes me want anything else or makes me lazy again, then I'll sell that too.

I'm also going to TRY and write more stories and poetry, I haven't written anything in months and I haven't even tried.. writing is my most fav thing in the world and I wanna get back to it, I'm going to try and make plans to get all my debts payed off and then apply for Full Sail University in Orlando Florida to get a BA in Creative writing, and I'm asking friends and family if any of them want to come with me, Because honestly, I'm a small town guy and orlando is a big city, I KNOW I will get swallowed up all by myself.


Say whatever you wish about me, I have the bawls to deal with harsh critizism, I'll know and understand people are just saying it not to be cruel to me. (Unless I can tell they are.)

I even got a picture of me with a bloody nose from the whole thing that I'll post tonight.

Edit: Ok, I gotta go to work, Be back at 9pm my time. (6 hours from now.)