Well it's been a month or so since my last update so here goes another one. I'm still in a bad way for one way or another. Things always teetering from bad to worse. The usual slew of things depression, loneliness and general self contempt for being stuck in the situation that I'm in but I'm not here to complain about all that since you've all heard it from me before. I really write these journals more for myself than for anyone else. Putting my thoughts down help me organize my thoughts. I hate the people I'm living with and my job is giving me one day a week in hours which is crippling me and yes I've talked to everyone possible about getting more hours so don't bother with advice. I am slowly degenerating into depression and malicious thinking. I can keep all that suppressed for now though I wish I had some sort of outlet for it all. Oh well that's life ain't it folks? We all have went through it. My only hope is that I can make it for just a little bit longer. I know a lot of you praise me for my endurance and patience but even stone wears away under the flow of time.