Just Got back in from an overnight trip up north... spent the night at my old man's place while my car got fixed.

I love the thing, really i do, it's not just something i say to fight the criticism i get for owning a "piece of crap". does your car get 20 miles per gallon, turn on a dime and park in the space of a postage stamp?

I think not. Hatchbacks = Win.

Anyway, still scrubbing through my folder looking for art that has been completed but never uploaded. i feel like i'm cheating kindof, your only supposed to post "new " art right? old posts don't count becasue you didn't do it yesterday.

well, most of this stuff just never got posted in these last few years cause I'm a lurker and a shut in. For the longest time i was perfectly content to observe and not to interact, disgusted with the drama, tantrum and headache the internet caused. I guess i was just trying to be mature about it by avoiding it altogether, not trying to be "above" anything, just avoiding a potential mess and focus instead on just making the art, learning my craft as well as i could.

but really, if i had been mature, i would have acted so by being part of the thing i was avoiding, and actually be the grown up. all this has really gotten me by dropping off the face of teh interwebs has been zero exposure, and anyone who used to be interested in my work forgetting i ever existed. a death sentence for an artist.

Also though, i think i was avoiding trying to have any sort of online presence, was because not just me being busy with school or my avoiding the connectivity of being online, but that being in an art school, i really got to connect with so many people who shared my hopes and dreams, i for once actually had a real social life.

Not that i didn't have one before, but the friends i have here in Minneapolis were always just so much more -present- i suppose living, working, and interacting in such a niched little art community tends to kind of suck you in. but i guess collage is like that.

Though re-reading what i just wrote is more or less my thoughts and feeling on the whole return to online, i TOTALLY did not mean to say "i had a life so i will ignore you internets losers, but oh! i want people to look at my art again so HI I'M BACK!!!!1!" That's totally not it really. i do yearn for that re-connection with all my old online friends, and that creative feedback and collaborative working environment that being online provided. i miss it. other things in my life acted as stand-ins and replacements for that, but those things are not as present as they used to be. school is winding down, many of my friends have graduated, so we see each other now weekly rather than every day in class. So while my real life is actually finally pretty satisfying, I'm searching for a new balance, and searching through my past might provide that.

Wow. my life is satisfying? when did that happen...

anyway, apologies for the long rant. i don't usually keep a journal, either online or off, so when i do rant it tends to come out in bursts and sum up great spans of time with huge rambling ideas.


Heh, or this entire entry in brief:
Me: INTERNETS! I HAVE RETURNED FROM AFK
internets: LOL WUT?

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