I'm back in MI.

You know how I was planning a trip to NYC? Yeah, not happening.

You know how I was living with my fiance and working at CP? Yeah, neither of those is true now.

Got into an argument over said trip and he said if I went, I'd better take all my stuff with me.

I'd mentioned the trip before and he'd asked if I'd be able to afford it, but he didn't say I shouldn't go outright, which made the amount of yelling he did all the more shocking to me.

I called my mom while I bawled my eyes out and she suggested that I come back to MI and that the two of us take a break for a while. I agreed and told my fiance that I was leaving. His stepmother (who was among the eight people that rented a house with us) insisted that I leave that night. So I packed up my stuff, still crying as I did, and got a hotel room for the night.

This morning I called CP to see if I could take an extended leave of absence. Unfortunately they wouldn't give me more than a few days leave, so I quit, turned in all of my stuff, then drove back to MI.

I honestly don't know what's going to happen now. I'm out $260 for plane tickets I'm not going to use, and I might have fucked up the only relationship I've ever had beyond repair. I still consider us engaged, but Facebook says "it's complicated".

Sorry to any MI furs I know (especially  acfay1 since I skipped out on him), I'm not feeling very social at the moment, so you probably won't see me for a little while. I'm not putting any of this on FB either; it was enough of a shitstorm when he posted it on FB, and his stepmother's comments only made things worse.

I can only hope things can get better. I can't take any more fuck-ups like this...