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guess who made the mistake of thinking it gets better.......
14 years ago
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yeah, i expected things to get better.... and thats my mistake... expecting things to get better.... i was looking forward to talking to my mate later..... nope, hes going to be gone all week...... he left for the beach today, suposed to get back wednesday, thursday to saturday..... so... yeah...
helping my aunt move, i foun 30 bucks i was going to give to my parents to help pay the debt for the dogs sergery.... and i just found out...... her didnt make it........
i... i was expecting him to come home all better, feeling amasing and everything...... i would hug him and hold him close, kiss his fuzzy little face all over, take him to the field and let him roll around in the grass, run around....... play with him, pet him.... love him up....
...he.... he had a tumor...... he.... he died..................... at the mere age of 6 (human years) he past.....
i..... i feel like this is all my fault too..... i dont know how..... but...... it.... its my fault..................
i.... i miss that little fur ball........ he has been gone one day........ one day...... and i miss him so much...... waiting at the steps and at the door for me to pet him and love him up and take him out for walks and whining when we werent paying attention to him and brushing up against us.......
god....... -is crying my eyes our irl-
this isnt the first time a serious pet died in my lifetime..... its actually the third..... first was abby when i was about 4.... she was a grey tabby...... rudy when i was like 11..... he was an orange tabby..... i grew up with those two..... they were in the house before i was........ they were my older brother and sister...... now..... rex..... the little fluffy white ball of fluff..............
.......why.,.... why does this have to happen......... just.... why................
abby died of cancer, i think rudy had a tumor too...... but rudy was like 18 in human years.....
abby was even older........
......god.... i feel like.... like this is all my fault..... i..... i dont know how, but i know it is.......
god...... just..... just...............
rest in peace rex..... you were a great little dog...... we loved you rex...... you will forever be in our hearts...... *blows a kiss to the heavens for him*
good bye rex........ rest well...... you were more than a pet.... you were a friend and a brother....
good bye...... enjoy doggy heaven
*hugs close*
I know it's hard losing a pet that was more than that; a pet that was family. My dog died earlier this year; his lungs fille with water and his major organs were shutting down, so we had to put him down. I coped by drawing Shadow, maybe that can help you, too....
It's hard. It really is. Just remember that Rex passed knowing he had a loving family and an owner as wonderful as you. I'm sure he will be able to rest peacefully because of how much you love him.
abby when i was 4/5 yrs old
rudy when i was 13/14
now rex... today... im 16...
abby and rudy i grew up with and was close to.... they were my big brother and big sister..... and rex.... god, me and him were unbelievably closs...