On Tuesday I started at the Wal Mart near my house. This means more money which is definitely a good thing. The flip side is that I have less time to be online or do art. Like today is Father's Day and I honestly don't know if I'll be able to draw anything for my dad or father in law. From now on, if I get commissions, I'll be taking them for small things like sketches or icons. I just apologize if it takes awhile for me to get to them. The turnaround time on things like character portraits or all out illustrations will probably have a heinously long turnaround time now and that'd just put more pressure on me cuz I'd hate it taking so long. I'm really worn out after work and the trend this week has been to turn on my computer, check messages online, then turn the computer back off and flop somewhere. That said,  alopex03 I haven't forgotten your sketches and promise they /will/ get done.

Now on to the last thing. Last Friday night, I was doing dishes and my dad called to tell me that my grandpa/his dad was dying. He was unresponsive and having trouble breathing and my dad thought him bad off enough that he could've gone that night. He didn't. He did however die last Sunday afternoon and I've been struggling all week. I'm not crying all the time but I feel really sad about it a lot. His funeral was Thursday and his burial was Friday. Couldn't go to either because of the freaking distance and I was starting at Wal Mart. My grandpa was such a full of life spirited man though that allowing my last memory of him be seeing him as a lifeless corpse in a casket would've felt wrong. As it stands, I have a really nice last memory of him from when my mom took me and my little brother to visit him in March. I gave him hugs and one of the last things I ever told him was that I love him when we were about to leave. He never said it back but that's fine. He expressed his love in plenty of other ways. It just wasn't his thing to say that. I'm going to miss him and sharing my birthday with him. I know he lived a very long life since he had just turned 91 and he was suffering horribly at the end but it just feels really weird that he's gone and now my grandmother on my mom's side is the only grandparent I have left.

So yeah there has been a lot going on.