Today something was different. Actually slowly its been different, every day its just a little stranger. The pain that was hanging over my head is fading, and last night I felt the last of it. I held a hand other than his. Something different. A warmer and much larger hand, a had that responded when I wiggled my fingers, unlike his. I felt a hand, not his, work its way through my hair while I drifted off to sleep. Yup ^^ even if its not a relationship that will last, or anything like that, he made me feel amazing again. I felt pretty, not ugly and ignored.

So it was my 'birthday party' only three people came lol. Its not that i'm disliked or anything, but all my friends do theatre and stuff like that. Oh and so I asked one guy who is a bass player, and he said that he had grandparents in town. And so I asked my newer friend, and he also wasn't going to come because his grandparents were in town. It ends up they're cousins LOL. I didn't even know that XD so that was pretty funny.

We made our own gummies (they tasted awful) and we just goofed around. Then we watched four movies. In other words we didn't get much sleep, though it was enjoyable even though I'm really tired. I rarely ever stay up past 11:00 and we were up all night. So I bet i'm going to be really tired for a few days. Right now i'm not that bad, it seems like I could take a nap and feel better. I set up my new computer *dance* so thats sweet. And today I have a bass lesson and possibly i'll be able to go to the symphony concert, cause I really want to go.