Haven't been able to get online in some time. Found myself rather buisy with many things. Includeing job hunting, appartment hunting, and apointments.

The days get easier, but i miss him so much. Its just not same without him. I so wish he could come with me to the baby apointment tomarrow, but he would prob say no.

Wish I could see him, but he probably dosn't want to see me.

I love him so much. He is a part of me now. Especially with our baby on the way.

*sighs* I find myself venting everytime i make a journal.....