I feel bad that with art I keep dropping into a kind of hiatus I really don't know what's up with that but life seems to get really busy all the time and it at least feels hard to make any progress in that time. I have my summer job again at an amusement park which is a very annoying, paranoia-inducing and inconvenient job. I always fear that someone is going to fall off a ride or something because they are an idiot or I forget to do something important. The best part is that it's minimum wage but I guess its better than nothing!

I designed my own cosplay a week or so ago and I'm going to give an effort to build it, if you can guess what it is I'll upload the design for you guys to see. I'll give one hint though, It's a Pokemon. Shouldn't be too hard!

I graduated 2 days ago and I am finally a free pup! I really can't wait to go to college and get into the new lifestyle, productivity mindset and just the overall atmosphere of AWESOME THINGS HAPPENING. I have a grad party this weekend where I'll DJ my own party and give all the guests glow sticks as we rave it out x3

In terms of art, I don't even know. I'm just so slow at doing anything that it pretty much demotivates me from jumping into art, I feel horrible that I've broken some promises but I just have a hard time controlling my perfectionism and anxiety. I basically draw when it's needed and I don't consider my own artistic wants as a need like a commission or art project would. I enjoy drawing things well and making art as a finished product but everything in-between for me is still really messy. I still have anatomy and proportional problems and I can hardly ever draw something without referencing a pose instead of making my own one up. Out of this though, the biggest thing that bothers me is that it takes FOREVER for me to draw something, I mean hours sometimes a week of fitting it in my day which is unnecessary. I don't know why I'm slow maybe I'm just not that much of a pro yet. I also don't know what will kick me out of the art block again. It's a motivational or anxiety issue I know for sure but it attacks me subconsciously all the time. There has to be some sort of fix for this.