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14 years ago
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Its been a long time since I've had anything on FA. And I've been thinking of posting it all back on here...
In all honesty, I made my FurAffinity to watch people. Never in my wildest dreams did I think I would get art of my own, and meet the wonderful friends I have now. But after a while, my FA page became a need for popularity... I started getting jealous of people who could actually draw, people who color better than me, people who were more popular. So thus I posted more art and spent more money, to get more popular. And it worked. More and more people were watching me, more were talking to me.
But then I grew less and less happy. With every comment, every +add favorite I got, the more upset and depressed I got. Because the people who liked the stuff I posted, most of them weren't true friends. Just people who wanted sex out of Rykken.
I finally got to the point where I was so depressed that I was crying to the few friends I talked with, being angry at everything, and thus, tore my art down. The sadness didnt go away right when I did that... It sure helped a bit... But it didn't get rid of it all. The longer I stayed away, the less posts of "Please come back!" were in my inbox. Im finally coming out of my depression swing, and have been thinking of everything. Whether or not to come back, whether or not to just leave being furry all together.
Here is what ive come up with. I plan on keeping my friends close to me. Closer than ever before. And when/if I do put my art back online, those of you who just want yiff and those of you who dont really care, (not pointing out names or anything) will be ignored. I do not need this to happen again. So tell me what you think. Should this husky start posting her art again?
P.S
I do NOT want a single comment on here saying "but I do care" or "I didnt just want to yiff" or "you only asked me for yiff nothing else" I am a new person, giving this website a second chance. Any comments like that, will be deleted and you will probably recieve a nasty note from me.
Just sayin.
This husky isn't as nice as you may remember, I'm more scarred and stronger now.
Yours always,
Rykkie ~<3
In all honesty, I made my FurAffinity to watch people. Never in my wildest dreams did I think I would get art of my own, and meet the wonderful friends I have now. But after a while, my FA page became a need for popularity... I started getting jealous of people who could actually draw, people who color better than me, people who were more popular. So thus I posted more art and spent more money, to get more popular. And it worked. More and more people were watching me, more were talking to me.
But then I grew less and less happy. With every comment, every +add favorite I got, the more upset and depressed I got. Because the people who liked the stuff I posted, most of them weren't true friends. Just people who wanted sex out of Rykken.
I finally got to the point where I was so depressed that I was crying to the few friends I talked with, being angry at everything, and thus, tore my art down. The sadness didnt go away right when I did that... It sure helped a bit... But it didn't get rid of it all. The longer I stayed away, the less posts of "Please come back!" were in my inbox. Im finally coming out of my depression swing, and have been thinking of everything. Whether or not to come back, whether or not to just leave being furry all together.
Here is what ive come up with. I plan on keeping my friends close to me. Closer than ever before. And when/if I do put my art back online, those of you who just want yiff and those of you who dont really care, (not pointing out names or anything) will be ignored. I do not need this to happen again. So tell me what you think. Should this husky start posting her art again?
P.S
I do NOT want a single comment on here saying "but I do care" or "I didnt just want to yiff" or "you only asked me for yiff nothing else" I am a new person, giving this website a second chance. Any comments like that, will be deleted and you will probably recieve a nasty note from me.
Just sayin.
This husky isn't as nice as you may remember, I'm more scarred and stronger now.
Yours always,
Rykkie ~<3
Whatever decision you make, good luck on it!
Don't let the people who only talk to others just to get yiff out of them bother you, they are very thick in the skull and don't understand how to behave properly and consider the mere fact its the internet some sort of twisted excuse. Just bark at them and tell them no if they bother you, you have every single right to.
I'm sorry to hear you felt this down anyway, pace yourself on this site how you like. We all need to distance ourselves from this stuff once in a while anyway, so do as you wish. Just hope you're not doing yourself any harm no matter what you do and you absolutely have my support no matter what. As one person to another person, as well. *hugs*
Myself, I just liked seeing your character designs and commission ideas. I wish I could pick similarly creative ideas. I only wish I had gotten to toss banter around before your departure and show you it's not all sex. As such, it would have seemingly come off as another +1 unnecessary "come back" note.
Do what's right for you, and good luck sorting out your FA status.
Note how those who draw sexual images have watches in the thousands but those who do only clean rarely make it past 100.
I will say that you had quality stuff up here, and that story you had up here gave me that warm sorta cuddly content feeling. I don't know you at all, but that was good stuff. I think it should be up here for posterity if nothing else. Also, if you can write something like that, then you're probably a good enough kind of person. I have no idea what I'm trying to say.
Bottom line, ignore the lamers, you seem to be a good person far as I could tell so let the good times roll.