a long time ago i was a lonely soul, fresh in the airforce with new and unfammiliar surroundings. it was at that time that i realised i might be gay, but i had never acted on any impulses.
my loneliness at that time made me try many, many different things.. i poked around on the internet, and figured out i was furry.. poking around some more, i find really good writers.
im a cancer, so writing takes me away to another universe entirely (i visualize everything, even when people talk to me.. its like dreaming when your awake). i befreind a few of them in an attempt to understand how someone could write so well, as i thought i myself was talentless. it turns out it may be quite the contrary, and the writers i befreinded ended up being like brothers to me (i even yiffed one of them O.o ), even though i had never met them in person..
oddly, i even have the same personality as one of them.
fast forward to now.
i get in touch with a writer whom i havent talked to in at least a year. we immediately started talking about the same wonderfull and interesting things that we had since i met him. the interesting way the universe works on a quantom level is one of them. :3
anyways, we complement each other as freinds do, and something clicked. something in the complement... the way he worded it.. i complemented back as best i could, i was completely taken aback by sutch kind words. and they just kept flowing! the beauty of those words... they made me tear up at times.
maybe im just rambling... i dont know.
what i do know is that i really like him, and i just never put two and two together untill just now.

i told him i was going to bed, but i needed to say these things before i did, and im retaining his identity unless he says otherwise....
lol, imagine a gay guy going 'ohmygod' floating around with wrists flopping everywhere.
thats how powerfull those words were to me... i havent felt like this in years. ^.^