So, I'm still looking for a place to move into in NJ. Still no vehicle or job and definitely no help from my parents. :I Upon request of my therapist I tried again to look into moving back in with family, my grandma specifically because she seemed supportive of me being TG. I was an idiot and told my mom about it.

After telling me she was afraid I was going to take advantage of my grandmother (lolhow), she proceeded to threaten to tell my grandma about something that would make her on my mother's side with a certain issue (which I was dumb and shouldn't have told her about). Then she told me how I never loved her and treated her and my little brothers like shit, acting like a total moody teenager. After that she told me how I was a college failure who fucked up their life and should just move home and start all over.

My own mother was bullying me into moving in with her and ONLY her. Yea no. My grandma lives down the street from her and thus, would not be an escape from her. In order to preserve any mental health I have I would have to do EXACTLY what I did growing up which is shut myself in my bedroom whenever I would be home. I'm not doing it again since I just know she would get on my back and go off about how I don't love her or how I am treating her or my brothers like shit. That was only an option if I could negotiate her out of her stupid rules for me moving back in (detransition and something else).

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