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Summer nights~ Stupid lifeeeeeeeejournallifeupdate
14 years ago
////excuse my spelling and general stream of consciousness writing/\
Maybe i nee dot eat dinner or just hate the holidays but,
Jesus fuck I'm bipolar-ly depressed ( week of ok with this week of why am I alive whywhywhwyhwyh)
Its environmental I think and so there is little I can do about it,,
I'm stuck in my grandfather house living here with out having to pay rent (not too bad really)
But I can't express myself the way I do, I can be a weirdo faggot 24-7 I can't have people over.
He doesn't really care but int he end its just awkward for everyone involved,
my right brain (right brain left brain stuff I stupid, brains are more complicated then that) is closed off
thats why I dance
Hover left brian struggles to survive on its own
so far I need to
-start a line of credit
-throw away some of my crap (organize)
-start dual citizen ship
-pay my bills and shit
-start college (maybe)
- get food stamps so I can save more cash
fuckfuckfuckf fuck living ont he moon
this economy , this whole fuckign US of A (Hahahhah)
I swear when I can I will leave this country asap
fuck cars
SORRY ABOUT THE VENT GUYS BUT MOST OF IT IS TRUE I KEEEP IT ALLL LOOOCKKCED UPP INSIIDE
[EDIT] I take that back America is auctually really good, no really, its just having a hard time
(its humanity in general that I should've been yelling at) [EDIT]
Jesus fuck I'm bipolar-ly depressed ( week of ok with this week of why am I alive whywhywhwyhwyh)
Its environmental I think and so there is little I can do about it,,
I'm stuck in my grandfather house living here with out having to pay rent (not too bad really)
But I can't express myself the way I do, I can be a weirdo faggot 24-7 I can't have people over.
He doesn't really care but int he end its just awkward for everyone involved,
my right brain (right brain left brain stuff I stupid, brains are more complicated then that) is closed off
thats why I dance
Hover left brian struggles to survive on its own
so far I need to
-start a line of credit
-throw away some of my crap (organize)
-start dual citizen ship
-pay my bills and shit
-start college (maybe)
- get food stamps so I can save more cash
fuckfuckfuckf fuck living ont he moon
this economy , this whole fuckign US of A (Hahahhah)
I swear when I can I will leave this country asap
fuck cars
SORRY ABOUT THE VENT GUYS BUT MOST OF IT IS TRUE I KEEEP IT ALLL LOOOCKKCED UPP INSIIDE
[EDIT] I take that back America is auctually really good, no really, its just having a hard time
(its humanity in general that I should've been yelling at) [EDIT]
wait no it isn't im just more elevated because of it,
maybe I should start smoking agian???? hmmmmm........
Make the most of your transition in life at the moment.. it's all you can do.
Positive energy goes a long way =)
anyway man sounds like you need some happiness
so heres a video of funny cats
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nTasT5h0LEg
As for the whole expression of self thing... That is something I realized when I was little... seems like there are many things that you are raised up to conform to but in actuality its up to yourself to chose whether or not to follow such rules... I get up every day and try to live my life to its fullest extent even when situations im put in are hard most of the time I remain optimistic and just deal with it with a smile and one paw in front of another
I thought it was a song
Sounds like alot of stuff I am going through
We all go through it. Just have to tough it out.