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14 years ago
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There are some people who doesn't like their mate's families and there are some who do. I met Josh's family after he introduced me to them when we moved to Tx back in '06. His mom loved me when she saw me and told her friends and strangers that I was her adopted son. It made me feel like I was part of Josh's family. I met gramma a few months after and she was the sweetest and coolest person her age I've met. Even though I met her for a few days, it felt like I've known her for many years. Sadly she passed away in Dec. Mom is going to her memorial in a few days and she told me that gramma loved me. I cried when she passed away and I cried when mom told me gramma loved me. It made me wish I could tell her I loved her too. I started to get watery eyed when I told my therapist about this and why it's hard for me to move on and find another mate. Josh's family accepted me as one of their own and I don't think I can find someone who has a caring family that will accept me like Josh's family.
People make mistakes and I know I made some horrible ones in the past. I turned my life around so I wont make the same mistakes again and having to go to the therapist is helping me keep the change. I promised Josh that if we get back together, we would see the therapist and solve the problems together. I want him to tell the therapist all the problems we had. I want the therapist to understand what went wrong in the relationship so we can fix it and be happier together like the way when we first met. Mom said she hasn't smiled in a long time and I know if Josh and I got back together in a caring relationship, she would smile and be proud that we were able to make it though the hard times.
People make mistakes and I know I made some horrible ones in the past. I turned my life around so I wont make the same mistakes again and having to go to the therapist is helping me keep the change. I promised Josh that if we get back together, we would see the therapist and solve the problems together. I want him to tell the therapist all the problems we had. I want the therapist to understand what went wrong in the relationship so we can fix it and be happier together like the way when we first met. Mom said she hasn't smiled in a long time and I know if Josh and I got back together in a caring relationship, she would smile and be proud that we were able to make it though the hard times.
I did a lot of things just so he can be comfortable with me. Everything went downhill after my grampa died. Josh only supported me for a few days and afterward, I couldn't handle my grampa's death, my gramma moving to Okinawa, and the lost of our house that I was raised in. My whole life was ruined because of all this so I started to drink and become an alcoholic. I didn't know what was happening to me. My whole life changed at that point. That's why when Josh left, I quit abusing alcohol and no longer an alcoholic. My behavior has changed back to the way it was when Josh was happy being with me... But he still thinks I'm a bad person and believes that I'm just doing this for him. I did it not just for myself, but for him, his family including mine, and all my friends who hated me. I'm a person who doesn't want to disappoint my friends or family...