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14 years ago
It's been a while and I've just not been much in the mood for things.
Good things: Since my run in at the beach, I've lost weight and things are trying to straighten themselves out.
Everything else has been absolutely horrible and I just can't contain it anymore and have to let it out. So to those maybe 2 of you who read these, thank you.
Our bank account keeps going in the negatives, which then takes a huge chunk of BJ's money when he gets paid. Then bills come out and then some magical unexpected crap gets pulled from his account and we end up in the hole again. The landlord is even being a jerk because we haven't been steady with rent.
We've talked about moving to KY to be close to my family since his family has cast us aside. It was going fine until just now. A few weeks ago my mom loaded up all she could into her van, left out and got to KY at 3am the next day. She's staying with her dad. I refuse to call him my grandfather because of actions he's done in the past. She wants me to move there with her. She asked him to get me a phone card since I was low on minutes. He did. I then had to call him and talk to him.
No-one can make you feel worse about yourself than your own family.
To give you more insight: My grandparents were married until I was about 7. My grandmother divorced him because he's such a douche and was tired of his abuse and they just couldn't settle things. He even made the comment about shooting himself in front of me. She had an awesome lawyer who made house calls and he was furious he wouldn't take his side and took hers. She filed the papers and put everything in motion. He was enraged and butt-hurt that he proceeded to put her through hell. His first step was to go to a doctor, make comments about wanting to kill himself where he was then sent to a mental institution for a while and then written up that he was mentally incompetent. He then got off the hook for several things he had to go to court for. He molested some little girls and got off. He broke into her house and stole her underwear, two tv's, a china cabinet, her jewelry box and a few other things I forget. Dad replaced the window with plexiglass and then next time we left there was a nice footprint left.
He molested a few more little girls and got away with it. He also then busted all the windows in my grandmother's car, poured sugar in her gas tank and did a lot more damage. He then proceeded with prank calls, stalking and other things. He even showed up to my grandma's funeral as if he expected money.
My sister went to visit because my mom wanted her to. The whole time she was there they ran their mouths about our dad and different things. Mom talked him into buying me a phone card and then told me to call him. I did. He proceeded to bring up my PCOS, which I am VERY touchy about, tell me to come back there and they would take care of me and that BJ needed to move there and get a job at the prison and get some good insurance, and if nothing else to "leave that sucker and come on up here."
Good things: Since my run in at the beach, I've lost weight and things are trying to straighten themselves out.
Everything else has been absolutely horrible and I just can't contain it anymore and have to let it out. So to those maybe 2 of you who read these, thank you.
Our bank account keeps going in the negatives, which then takes a huge chunk of BJ's money when he gets paid. Then bills come out and then some magical unexpected crap gets pulled from his account and we end up in the hole again. The landlord is even being a jerk because we haven't been steady with rent.
We've talked about moving to KY to be close to my family since his family has cast us aside. It was going fine until just now. A few weeks ago my mom loaded up all she could into her van, left out and got to KY at 3am the next day. She's staying with her dad. I refuse to call him my grandfather because of actions he's done in the past. She wants me to move there with her. She asked him to get me a phone card since I was low on minutes. He did. I then had to call him and talk to him.
No-one can make you feel worse about yourself than your own family.
To give you more insight: My grandparents were married until I was about 7. My grandmother divorced him because he's such a douche and was tired of his abuse and they just couldn't settle things. He even made the comment about shooting himself in front of me. She had an awesome lawyer who made house calls and he was furious he wouldn't take his side and took hers. She filed the papers and put everything in motion. He was enraged and butt-hurt that he proceeded to put her through hell. His first step was to go to a doctor, make comments about wanting to kill himself where he was then sent to a mental institution for a while and then written up that he was mentally incompetent. He then got off the hook for several things he had to go to court for. He molested some little girls and got off. He broke into her house and stole her underwear, two tv's, a china cabinet, her jewelry box and a few other things I forget. Dad replaced the window with plexiglass and then next time we left there was a nice footprint left.
He molested a few more little girls and got away with it. He also then busted all the windows in my grandmother's car, poured sugar in her gas tank and did a lot more damage. He then proceeded with prank calls, stalking and other things. He even showed up to my grandma's funeral as if he expected money.
My sister went to visit because my mom wanted her to. The whole time she was there they ran their mouths about our dad and different things. Mom talked him into buying me a phone card and then told me to call him. I did. He proceeded to bring up my PCOS, which I am VERY touchy about, tell me to come back there and they would take care of me and that BJ needed to move there and get a job at the prison and get some good insurance, and if nothing else to "leave that sucker and come on up here."
make rent #1 everything else is second long as yoiu have a roof on your head other things can be handled
awesome on ya to be losing weight! BRAVO!!
Remember hun - you CAN get through. Won;t always be elegant, but you can.