My current true feelings.
14 years ago
Hello again those few people that read these things another update for your masochistic eyes. I have been spending a lot of time to myself lately and have come to the conclusion that I have been denying for a very long time. My friends that are happy and having a good time right now in life. I hate you all. I am jealous and consumed by envy due to the fact that no matter how hard I try or work I can never get ahead. This is pointless and petty but I don't care anymore. The happiness of others pisses me off. I makes me angry and I want want to just splatter the walls with their blood and that is no exaggeration. I am violent and don't care anymore. The endless nights of crippling depression and rising anger have won out. So if you are currently having a good life or something good is finally working out for you. Go die in a ditch. No I won't be happy for you I will hold nothing but contempt for you and your joy. You can hate me in return and frankly I would encourage it. Break yourself down to my level. Experience what I do daily and maybe you'll appreciate what you have more afterward. Post your pity as comments or the rants about me being a petty dick. Go for it. There is nothing that you can do to me to make me care or do anything else. I want blood. I want suffering. I want hatred. I am what the world makes me. Look at it and judge for yourself.

GreenBanana
~greenbanana
I find this due mainly in part to the corporate world's insolent trends towards Marxist Capitalism. We're being trained by the media to look down upon people which we deem as "less successful" than others. Despite the countless messages we also receive about "inner beauty" and the intrinsic individualism which is inherent to a system of organic procreation, we reject the moralistic view in favor of popularity and wealth. Hell, look at this example: we rate the well-being of our economy based on how much people are SPENDING. That's how much the wealthy groupthink businesses are MAKING. That's LESS money in the hands of individuals, and thereby less power. So basically we're grading ourselves on how detrimental our core values are. Apparently the worse we actually do in values that each of us sole units can positively measure (that is via positivist observation), the better things are for everyone as a whole. So society (which is a real thing and really exists, something else we've been in denial about) continues to harangue the unemployed and yet allow our unemployment rates to rise via outsourcing and degrading into a self-destructive service-based economy. And all the while, we're continually fed lies and broken promises by our institutions of socialization--schools and universities which promise jobs for good grades and then never deliver. It doesn't help as long as we continue to believe in the fallacy that entrepreneurs are doing us a favor by paying us for labor we're giving them (it's not a favor if it evens out). They distance themselves for us, and now the greatest shame that really shows how the working and nonworking poor are becoming "untouchables" is advertising directed towards business OWNERS. Clearly our corporate-run society has given up on the human condition.

DracoPhantasm
~dracophantasm
OP
I really don't think I could have said it better myself with a computer writing it for me. It's a sad time that we live in and it's only getting worse by the day. Good people are being punished and the corrupt thrive everyday.