yea I had dinner with Greg last night. He confused the hell out of me. He said he still has feelings for me yet he has a girl who has mutual interest in him *he has interest in her too* :/ I don't fucking know what to make of that. *Sigh* I still have feelings for him too. BUT I do not want another shot in the emotional heart again. :<

apparently his new girl has a son.


I really don't know what to do and the only people I can fully say are there for me FULLY are James and Josh. T_T I know others are there for me and all but I get texts from them daily asking how I'm doing. I am not in a good place right now at all. I want to cut myself so badly right now so I put a rubber band around my wrist so I can snap it (a common coping method among cutters)